What is your poison?

Do share... Mine's coffee, and spirits.

Happy CNY!

Right... Usual blah crap, happy cny, yadeeyadeeya, etc, blah blah. My family reunion dinner isn't really one. Considering its just me, my sis and my mum. Dad's well. In Malaysia, so he's going to his family's one in Miri.

I kinda detest CNY at times. Its so dull at the moment. And Lifehouse is getting stuck on my mind more than ever. Not a good sign I guess. Off to looking for computer parts online. Ciao

the calm before the storm.

Its beginning... And I cannot find the calm to walk in the maelstrom...

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

I know... utterly random, but yet another Lifehouse song stuck in my head. Amazing...

Valentine's

Yeah, you'd think that I'd be writing this post saying I went out with my valentine's and all, but truthfully. I don't have one. That wasn't going to stop me from going out. I went out with the other bachelors today. Well, the ones not in school anyway. Had heaps of fun in the city. Went for Rocky Balboa and then two hours of pool.

Rocky Balboa... What can I say... It was alright I guess, but it isn't the kind of movie I'd recommend for you all. Well... I mean the fight scene at the end, although good, was a tad too short. And it only lasted for like what 30 mins, when the whole movie was 1hr 45 mins. Which means, the only good bit was the last 1/3 of the movie. And then again, they didn't show the whole 10 rounds. And he's just too old. I honestly fell asleep during the first hour, if you must know. Perhaps some people would feel differently about this, but that's what I think about this movie. Do not spend money on it. If you must watch, go get the pirated version, downloaded or otherwise. Or wait till someone gets it on DVD, rented or otherwise. Then borrow/watch it. Seriously.

Other than that, nothing much else to say. I was thinking of going over to Melbourne sometime during this year to visit people, both from Malaysia and New Zealand. Cool eh? We'll see about that though. I have to get it sorted. Maybe I'll go in winter, cos well... Summer I have to work. So winter sounds best. And I turn 18 about winter (southern hemisphere), so that'll be all sweet. Well, off I go then. Ciao.

Tasteless

I swear somethings wrong with my taste buds. Last night, I went over to Sarah's for her and Hannah's farewelling party thing. And predictably, there were drinks. Well, I skipped the beer and opted for Smirnoff Ices and those blue vodka things. Then we progressed to screwdrivers. And yes, there was food. Barbeque I think. Can't really remember what exactly.

Oh! We played Buzz too. Goddamn I was so buzzer-happy then. And uhh, there was Singstar. And I pwnt them all, for well. Any song that didn't require me to castrate myself like The Darkness. Arnold probably showed up earlier, and obviously we were still drinking. I forgot my togs, so I didn't get in the pool. I know my writing's really disjointed, but my head's a little like that at the moment.

Then at some point, Arnold wanted me to do 3 Galliano shots in a row. Or maybe I did two the last time in a row, and he wanted me to do one more. Whatever. Don't really remember. The only thing I can say is, I swear I couldn't taste those shots. I thought it was water they were giving me. They adamantly protested otherwise. And well, considering I did feel the hit quite a while after, I suppose they were right. I dunno, it was supposed to taste like anise, or maybe liquorice. Or something. But that's where it doesn't make sense. I did not taste anything, except water. Maybe my taste buds are fucked up. Ah well. Cos I did taste the vodka, I'm sure... Hmm, wait, did I do vodka after those shots?

Ah whatever, going to get a bit more sleep. Only had 4 hours of sleep total. Kept waking up intermittently. And my head's kinda spinning. Ciao

"Keep your friends close, keep your enemies closer"

I re-watched Cruel Intentions recently, and well, it was still good the second time round. Although I think I preferred Match Point as a whole for being a re-watchable movie. I liked that quote above very much. Should be pretty obvious too. But honestly, how many people do you see doing that? Sadly, its only those people who are so manipulative that they probably never have friends. Or if they do, they might not even know who their friends are. I'm glad that I'm not like that, I hope.

Have you ever reached the point when you sometimes feel like ditching the majority of your friends where you are, and just moving on? I'm going through one of those phases. Getting annoyed isn't good for me I guess.

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

Cheer up Gabe. Perhaps patience and determination will get you through.

Blind.

Well. I already know I'm blind. But I'm speaking of the song by Lifehouse. Suddenly decided to go and listen to it, and I find that I like it. If someone could find me songs that are closely similar to it in mood, I'd be happy.

Here goes the huge space filler, the lyrics.:

Blind by Lifehouse

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this while
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

Yeah, I like Lifehouse quite a bit at times. They have the tendency to churn out songs with good lyrics. So what if they're not metal, or rock, or if they're really really mellow. I'm in the mood for it. So well, anyway, my day was practically a waste of time. Did nothing more but sit at home on my ass. And listening to random music, posting in the manga site, and deciding to listen to the Lifehouse song. Anyway, going to read some stories for now. Ciao.

School's Starting...

But not for me!!! Hehe, it's always good to know that while everyone's off to school, which starts tomorrow, I'll be lazing around at home, since I'm off to varsity and I'll have 3 extra weeks of holiday... ^^ Although I probably shouldn't rub it in their faces. Its good that I managed to sort out my student loan and application today, that basically completes the list of things I have to get ready for college. Unless getting a new bag counts. Not that I need one, but... Ah, you know... It'll be nice.

I noticed that life has been grinding down to a very slow pace recently. I'm just waiting for John to finish his summer school exams so I can go computer shopping with him, since he'd be better at haggling than me (and well, he can speak Chinese, so he'll be definitely better at haggling with those Asian dealers). And as for life being slow, probably its because I have a lack of friends who are going to college with me. I guess I never did take the time to extensively socialise and involve myself with the 7th formers (who are starting college with me, as opposed to my 6th form friends). Or maybe they didn't take the time to socialise with me. Ah, who knows. I'm going to college, I can just meet them there. Heh.

Haven't done much today beyond submitting my applications. Did some shopping. Which ain't much, but I got myself a summer jacket and 3 hats. Well, I know its the end of summer, but it was a nice jacket. So sue me. And well, I still want more hats. Didn't manage to find the hat I was looking for. You know, something like a herringbone messenger/courier boy hat? I don't really know what it is called. But well, just wanted one. And maybe a weird fishing hat that would fit me. I think its becoming an obsession now. Oh well, what's life without a vice?

Yeah, I should get around to organising something for me to do this week or the next. The problem is school's started. And well, that just cuts down the number of people available whom I know well to two. Damn. Not much to do with two people as I know it. And it's Valentine's next Wednesday too. The price of roses will be expectedly marked up. I saw it at a florist for $18 a rose in a box. Obviously a red rose, but still. $18 is a tad pricey don't you think?

Hmm, maybe I'll get to re-watching Cruel Intentions or Donnie Darko tonight. Yes, I'm that bored. Well, I'm off. Ciao.