Silence is golden, but I think its gonna kill me now.
Everything I've seen never seems to fail me now.
No one told me that the world could fall through, yeah.

In between this am I gonna find a way,
to defeat this living inside yesterday?
I'm alive I think its time to live like I am,
am I ever gonna find it,
am I ever gonna find it,
am I ever gonna find out?

Damn, I have no idea why this Lifehouse song is stuck in my head. My favourite song for the day.: "Am I Ever Gonna Find Out".

MATLAB project for Software Computation due in 2.5 weeks. PHIL 105 test in 10 days. OASIS test for ELECTENG 101 this Friday. All hail the end of my free time. All hail the end of my social life. I hate MATLAB. And back to practice OASIS problems. I don't hate you as much OASIS.

Random side-note: Yesterday, two chicks from Engineering were walking behind me, and they told me that I smelt nice. Yes. Apparently I did. Lol.

lost moments

One must wonder how the quickly time can pass. In a blink of the eye, the years pass, and events come to be. People, too, come and go, and sometimes in our rapid motion, we do not even pause to acknowledge them. We just step forward, and it all becomes a blur.

But yet, when we look back on these moments, only then do we realise the magic contained. If only we could pull ourselves back, so we could better appreciate the lost time. But time, that inexorable pull, draws us on, and we can do nothing but gaze upon lost opportunities.

But even through the regret, one must also realise that these moments are precious. Precious enough that someday we will look back and smile. Be it that those may have been times of great tension, strife, or laughter, like the axiom "a rose is a rose is a rose", we then only see how, happy or otherwise, it was a memory nevertheless, and such memories form a part of us.

As some say, however, to see the rainbow you must first have the rain. So endure we shall, and endure we must. Let us strengthen our resolve then, that we do not put to waste such treasured moments, that we do not let opportunities pass us by. Someday we will see the rainbow just over the horizon, and it shall become another memory in our hearts.


Haec Olim Meminisse Iuvabit
-"Perhaps, we'll look back at this and smile", Virgil-

Inland Empire

I'm pretty sure most people would never have heard of this movie, much less seen it. Its David Lynch's latest movie, and its seriously, to put it, some fucking weird shit. No kidding. Its like 3 hours of completely confusing stuff. I mean, I like Arthouse type movies and all, but this, is all just too much. Too many details, too many messages, and I particularly didn't understand the point. I think I stopped caring what it was about at some point, since it threw me offtrack every time I thought it started to make sense.

But hey, all good. I guess I need to expose myself to all this once in a while, and well, it was expected, considering it was a film by David Lynch after all.

Story...

I've just came across this short story, its a fantasy story. I must say, its one of the best stories I've actually read. So good that I'd actually recommend you read it. It comes from Karina Summer-Smith, and I found it from the SFWA Net Ring (Science Fiction and Fantasy Writers of America). The story's called "An End to All Things" and the direct link to it is here.

Now, I have no idea if I'm breaking copyright laws, so if I am, just tell me, and I'll remove the link.

It has just come to my attention that I neglected to actually post up what happened at Shadows (you know, the pub where all the students hang out). Ah well, I'll try and see if I have enough time for today to post it. Actually, scratch that. I can't even remember much of it anyway, my memory's pretty hazy about it. I do know I got home in one piece, with two free T-shirts. Both of them re-orientation shirts, and one of which reads: "Someone once said that getting a degree is like brewing a great beer. We aren't sure why, but it seemed to make sense at the time." Got to get a shower and get things sorted, such as buying drinks and food to bring to a cocktail party tonight -_-".

But well, yeah. I must say I'm fully enjoying my first week, although I'm really tired. Only woke up at 1 today, for a grand total of.... 12 hours of sleep for the night. Yeah, thats like 2-3 times more than my usual during the week. I would have slept earlier but I was trying to get my tasks for next week's labs done in advance. And not to forget, I need to do the problem sheets for my other subjects. And some study has to be done. Wow, it feels crammed.

I'm pretty sure I'll be getting my MATLAB project (urghh, I hate MATLAB) sometime next week, or maybe the week after. At least I'm pretty sure it'll be easy, since I've already done MM2, and what's a first year MATLAB project in the face of a second year MATLAB project? Oh crap, I don't have my Philosophy course notes or workbook. Crap, how am I going to study for it? I'm already 2 lectures behind ><

It's going to be Richard's birthday next Wednesday. Heh, I wonder if I should get him something...

Ah crap, wasted enough time dallying already. I promise I'll blog about something more relevant when I have the time to actually post. Ciao.

Ughhhhh... I don't feel so good right now...

My head hurts. Not so much like New Year's, but I think I really flew off the handle, oops. Wrong cliche/idiom/whatever-the-hell-it-is. Uhm, yeah. I can't exactly remember how much I drank, but I estimate 3 or 4 jugs of beer and 3 Smirnoff blacks, for a total of at least 14 standard drinks last night. Ouch.

Well, I've got two free T-shirts for it. Oh god. And I'm woozy. Ah, the joys of re-orientation week in Shadows. The live band wasn't actually bad, but I think the opening band was better. Purely because I didn't like metal which degenerated completely to screaming. Maybe I'll post about it later. Got a really long day ahead of me, and I start in 1 hour's time. Gonna grab the Panadol and go.

Alright, before you start calling me a nerd. I found this extremely painful and cringe-inducing, but hey. It had its moments, especially when you understand most of these mathematical terms. Oh dear, what have I become. Its the story of "Pretty Little Polly Nomial and Curly Pi", which can be found here.

Prepare to start cringing you lot.

1st day back...

Alright, fine fine fine fine. I'm going to update the blog. Good call Lionel. I bet you're so happy now. Well, I guess its been awhile since I've last blogged.

I love going back to university and all, except for one little problem. Stupid lectures at 8am in the MORNING. YES, MORNING. (Which, really, is a damn shame.) I have to wake up at 6am in the morning just so I can take a long hot shower, because its so damn cold, and have enough time to fumble around in the dark, since its only 6AM IN THE MORNING; as well as eat some semblance of breakfast.

But, hey, I got there on time. And to start my day; was the most interesting discovery I made upon reaching my locker. MY LOCKER WAS BLOODY BROKEN INTO. Well, my padlock got completely twisted out of shape, like somebody attempted to wrench it or something (I'm guessing some pliers did the job), and someone even kindly dumped it inside my locker. And why my locker? WHY?! Its not like I have jewelry or limited edition textbooks which are worth $1000. Hell, I don't even have textbooks, since I'm too much of a cheapskate to buy them. (Don't need them anyway). Ah well, I'll just have to replace the lock I guess. This time with a really really THICK one. And here I thought everyone at Engineering was more than rich enough to afford their own lockers/books/pencils/formula book/paper.

Aside from that, lectures were actually fun, I daresay. Of course, ENGGEN 131 was a bore since they were going over multiplications in MATLAB. Which, in my humble opinion, is rather obvious. Like 5*3 is obviously 5 multiplied 3.

Oh my god, I'm thinking of actually switching my General Education (GE) paper to SPORTSCI 101: Myths & Fitness. Its so, uhm, interestingly educational? And they have heaps of lecturers, all of whom have multiple postgrads. I'm so impressed, I'm actually gushing. But I think I'll stick around and see what PHIL 105 is like... If its easy, then I'll stay. After all, free A+'s beat interesting, right?

CHEMMAT 121 was such a laugh. Our lecturer chose to take a sword (yes, a real one) as "a typical engineering specimen" for her illustrations of stress, strain and elasticity. Like: "Now, you wouldn't want this engineering specimen to bend too much when you attempt to stab someone with it" and so forth. She even brought two squash racquet's, one bent out of shape, the other snapped completely. She claimed it was due to her having issues of unhappiness with the said items during related games of squash. Oh god, she's got a good sense of humour, as well as a good sense of sarcasm, for an engineer. And our engineering lecturers are known to be lame and dull, so I think I'm in for some fun this semester.

I know this will sound really really sad, but I waited for Shadows to open at midday for 40 minutes. Yes, 40 minutes. Well, it wasn't my fault, really... There was nothing better to do for 3 hours, and Jamie suggested that we get a jug of beer (which turned out to be 3)... But hey, it was all good. I got into the ENGGEN 131 lab slightly tipsy. And I even managed to complete my lab work within half an hour!!! YAY!

Um, I think that's it for now... I'm like really tired, and grumpy because all I have tomorrow is a lecture, which wastes an hour or more of my life getting up and going to the lecture. Did I mention that I was bored? Oh... speaking of bored...

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Alright, ciao.

Yeah, 'twas a good day yesterday. I would normally have forgotten that my birthday was yesterday, but I got around to organising (albeit a little last minute) stuff to do with my friends, so it was, all in all, a fun day. I'm happy to spend my time with friends.

Lasertag at Ponsonby was good fun. I still suck heaps at it, but I'm getting better, I think. Or perhaps I'd like to think that, hehe. I definitely know that I did way worse the first time round... And I didn't even know half of the people I was playing with. Among the 15 of us (including myself), I only knew Mihailo, JiWin, Daniel, Chris, Allan, Carol, Laura, and Lily. Alright, fine. That's quite a few, considering its more than half of the 14. And I suppose I kinda knew Chen, since well, Carol got me and him talking to get this thing sorted. All good though, I basically ended up shooting anything that moved, even when it was my own team mate =P My bad...

Uhm, yeah. Dinner was a fun fun affair too. Gengy's is so totally worth it for like $21.95. Its all you can eat, and they cook it in front of you, Mongolian BBQ style. You even pick the seasoning, sauces and ingredients, etc. Fun, fun, fun. I definitely want to do that again. And oh, the dessert was pancakes with ice cream. Who could pass up on either pan cakes or ice cream? Gosh, and the sauces were fun to experiment with.

Strangely enough, I think Allan must have picked up something from Richard, even though I'm sure Allan's never seen Richard interact with me much. He decided to be rather mean (yes I hate you Allan =P) and called me a girl. I think it had something to do with him making a comparison between me and Laura and saying that she should shop more, etc. Considering that I do shop a lot... well, I guess it didn't help my case. Also, I guess the fact that I was the only guy who decided to wear a scarf, and well... Laura was wearing a scarf too... You get the point. And the jokes kept on rolling. Poor me, and it was my birthday even.

Oh well, I actually didn't mind. Its good to have a laugh at your own expense. And I did walk into some of the jokes. Silly me. Hehe.

I swear I must have gotten worse at bowling though. I remember playing 2 or so years ago, and I'm pretty certain I was NOT this horrible. I was awful. I got the ball into the gutter on so many occasions it became well, embarrassing. And to think the last time, I was actually not that bad, and could score well into the triple digit region by the end of every game. Ah well, I guess I've definitely showed them up when they say: "You can't completely forget how to play a game once you've learnt it". So there. I've not only forgotten it, but I've completely gone beyond forgetting to being utterly useless. They should let me play with the gutter-guards and that kiddish ramp. Hehe =P

Semester 1 Results Are OUT!!!

Yup! After a incessantly long and mundane period of time, I'm proud to say that I've finally got the results for my exam out. Well, I've been getting the results all through the week, but the last one came out today. I ended up getting an overall GPA of 6.75 (out of a maximum of 9), which is in between a B+ (6) and A- (7).

And the lowdown of the subjects:
ENGGEN 121: Mechanics A-
ENGSCI 211: Mathematical Modelling 2 A
ENGGEN 140: Biology & Chemistry A
ENGGEN 115: Design B-

Alright, I admit, I did screw up Design quite badly... at least 3 grades below my 2nd worst subject. But hey, at least I passed it within the B grade. A shame about BIOCHEM and MM2 though... I definitely know I could have gotten A+'s for both of them. And if I got one grade higher in any one subject, namely that bloody A+ for BIOCHEM... I would have gotten an overall GPA of 7... sigh.

Overall, I'd say I'm kinda happy with how things are going so far. Considering that I was too slack at the start, I think I managed to bounce back and pull through sufficiently well. All that remains is to tackle the second semester with the utmost of my ability, which should pretty much get me A-/A's, I should think. Oh wait, maybe not for ENGGEN 131: Software Computation.

The other thing that's got me confused is the ranking criteria for specialisation selection for Part II (second year). They say that they consider Part I academic results; but since I'm doing 9 subjects this year, 2 of which are from Part II itself, what then? Do they disregard them completely? I certainly hope not, since my MM2 results are partially holding up my GPA. Wouldn't want to fall behind.

Sadly though, I wouldn't be able to get anything more than an A- for my GPA for this year. Even if I get straight A+'s for next semester, my overall GPA would still be 7.8-ish... which is just a little shy of the 8 mark. Ah well.

Now I must say I'm quite impatient for the holidays to be over. I'm already bored enough with my holidays as it is. Perhaps I'll go get the course books next week and do a preemptive review of the subjects. Wow, I sound like a nerd already ><

I'd like to know... Why am I always the middle-man when it comes to some sort of issue with people liking others? No names here, it should be fairly obvious who you are if perchance, you stumble on my blog. But you know, you falling for her ain't helping matters.

Yes, I'm ranting. Yes, I shouldn't be, but why did you have to fall for her? You already knew she isn't going to be interested. I already hinted several times nicely. I said she's a heartbreaker in that she would not like you that way. After all, I know her well enough to say that. But you just had to didn't you?

Sigh, I guess I really can't blame you. You didn't really choose to be this way. But you're going to suffer a lot unless you get over her. And you're making it really difficult for her as well as yourself.

I shouldn't criticise you, especially when I'm in the same situation as you. Not the same person, and not exactly the same situation, but yeah well. Silly, ain't it?

Transformers: A Must-Watch

Yes. I never ever thought I'd be saying this, but Transformers is honestly AWESOME! Yeah, like the kind that makes you want to watch it again, and again. Come to think of it, I can't explain why, words fail me at this point. But its just great. Seriously. Do yourself a favour, and watch it now. DO IT.

You know, I was reading this magazine article, and I came across a mention of some crazy guy in the States who claims to be the Antichrist. So much so that he encourages his followers to tattoo "666" or their forearms. I wouldn't dismiss this straight up, though. He apparently is quite influential, although cult analysts are unsure how much of a "fad" he is at the moment. But most cults are dangerous anyway. It just pains me to see people do things like this.

I mean, I'm not the most fervent Christian, heck, I might as well be considered fully nominal religiously, but its a silly thing to do. Ah well, maybe something will happen to him along the way and it'll just be another stone tossed in the river.

I need help with picking out presents for guys. Well, I'm just out of ideas for cheap-ish presents.

Got to get stuff for Mihailo and Thomas, since, well, I forgot their birthdays. Both of which were like quite awhile ago. Tom's wasn't so bad, 1 June... but Mihailo's was like the 31 March... Heh... I'm so slack.

And I frankly can't think of anything that's a good gift. You know, something that isn't useless. Hmm.... suggestions anyone?

Exhaustion.

Well, yeah, you'd think that just because my exams are over, and my holidays have started, that I'd be having plenty of rest without feeling tired right?

Dead wrong. I'm so exhausted from going to the gym. I swear not one of my body is actually sore from doing only half of the required exercises. Sigh, I need to get myself in shape faster...

Apparently, the new gym programme that I got is a little bit too intense considering that I hadn't been doing much recently, according to another gym instructor. So he was advising that I reduce the number of sets I do from 5 to 3, then up it progressively in a few weeks time. I'll try following his advice.

Met Maxim again today, after meeting him yesterday at gym. He's good. Well, compared to me, he is. I have to work harder...

Napped for like 3 hours as soon as I got home from gym. Yeah I was really that tired. And finally got Halo 2 to install itself. Turns out I was doing something wrong all along, well, whatever. It works now, I think.

I've recently got the "Where You Lead" song stuck in my head. If no one can place it, its well-known as the Gilmore Girls opening credits song. Speaking of which, Gilmore Girls is finished. I only know 'cause my sister watches it every Sunday when they show it here, but its not a bad show. I found myself analyzing their story-telling techniques. They use a lot of symbolism, which I don't mind, and they have the occasional sarcastic humour, which is always a plus. Although sometimes they get too girly and mushy, which is well, only to be expected. So I still don't really like it that much. I'd rather watch House any day.

I really should get started on watching Heroes, but there's just so much to start with, I don't know if I can really be bothered with it...

Anyway, written enough for the moment I believe. See ya soon.

I'm free!

Yes! Exams are over, well... they were over for me since Wednesday, but I was too busy celebrating and all =P

Firstly, my exams were pretty good, I guess. Except for Design, as I expected. To be honest, it was horrible. For a two hour long exam that is easy in terms of work (I mean drawing, and regurgitating common sense, how hard is that?), you'd think that it was a breeze. But nooo, it wasn't... It was a nightmare. They gave way too much drawings, and while it was easy to regurgitate the writing bits, one of it involved doing a bloody MART (Multi-Attribute Rating Technique, don't ask, seriously, don't) which takes about half an hour, or 1/4 of the time allocated to you. And this was all for 10% of the exam mark. Honestly ridiculous. I only know of like less than 10 people who managed to finish the whole exam to its entirety in the time given. Even the genii like Richard and Alex got through 90%+ of the paper... I managed about 80% =( And I won't get 80% of it as well.

Ah well, the rest by comparison were alright. I didn't really like Mechanics, especially with 12 questions over 3 hours, or 15 minutes per question. The questions were easy, but when you can't figure it out initially and start to worry, like I did, you screw up a little. I did a question and crossed it out completely since it seemed so wrong, when I was doing it right. And I could have gotten partial credit too. Gah! Maths Modeling 2 was fun. I made some really dumb mistakes, like differentiating instead of integrating for my double integral, but I reckon I did everything else alright. Same goes for Biochem. I'm just galled that I made so many little mistakes because of sheer stupidity.

But enough of the exams. Its over, and I get 4 weeks of holiday!!! Well, officially I get 2, but I have "study leave", soooo.... HOLIDAYS!!!!! I even treated myself to a mini shopping spree. Went to ParisTexas and got myself a hoodie and sweater, and yeah, a few shirts. Maybe I'll go get myself that new fragrance, CK in2u as well...

Speaking of holidays, my holidays aren't going to be so fun since I, well, decided to remake my gym schedule. And well, my new one is the standard training regiment (mine before was a really relaxed one, but it probably did nothing for me), and I have to do it four times a week. Man, I'm going to be sooooo slaughtered by the end of each of those days.... Considering that I haven't been to gym for like 2 weeks now too.

I'm turning 18 soon! Well, a month from now, but still soon. Now I don't have to turn down invites from Ash to the pub. I've already turned him down like 4 times ever since I started talking to him 3 weeks ago. Practically just about every time I see him, in that sense.

Hehe, I'm a little tired now. I've worn myself out a gym today, and well... I only had 7 hours of sleep last night, when I should be having a big sleep-in... So, night!

That Maroon 5 song is quite an addictive one. You know, the one they call: "Makes Me Wonder"

I still don't have a reason,
and you don't have the time.
And it really makes me wonder,
if I ever gave a f**k about you and I...
And so this is goodbye.

Give me something to believe in,
'cause I don't believe in you anymore; anymore
I wonder if it makes a difference;
it even makes a difference to try.
And you told me how you're feeling
but I don't believe its true anymore; anymore.
I wonder if it makes a difference to cry.
So this is goodbye.

Yup, thats pretty much the bridge and chorus of the song. But I kinda liked it. So there.

At World's End... and G UNIT!!!!

Yeah! Saw pirates of the caribbean last Thurs, and it was great =D Although I only got back at like 1am the next day... ><>< I hope I don't fail the exam 'cause of that...

I only got up at like 11-ish, which was like 5 hours later than I normally woke up. Needless to say, it was good. Except that I was still tired, even at 3pm. I left for campus at like 12. Met up with Allan, Jamie, Miles, and Tommy. Then we just chilled for a bit before dispersing to our own things. Oh, did I mention that Jamie mixed this random song using one of our BioChem lecturer's voice? There was this quick video clip with her talking about bioenergy and biofuels, so it went like: "Hi, I'm Amy McLennan. Most of you may already know me as your BioChem lecturer, but I am also in... G UNIT." LOL. Needless to say it was quite funny, with bits like: "My name is.. my name is... my name is... Amy Mc - Mc -Mc Lennan." And other bits like: "bioenergy bio-bio energy RESPECT" Heh, alright, I admit that it'd have been funnier if you had her as a lecturer, and you could kind of tell where the mixes started and ended. But hey, Jamie did it when he was sick, and only spent 30 mins on it. Plus, it was his first attempt at such a thing. So, kudos to him =)

And then, I ran into Richard again. Man, considering we have no classes in common except Design and Maths, I still see him everywhere. ><>< Thats one hardcore dude. At least he didn't seem too wasted today. Except that I probably did.

Even ran into Eddie and Faith, and I haven't seen them for quite awhile. I guess Friday was the day to bump into everyone. Hmm, didn't bump into Matt. Ah well. Alright, I kinda have to get back to studying for Maths and others, especially Design and Mechanics. I got 32/40 for my last 121 test, which was only 1 mark above average. Sucky... although I'm doing well in 140, so I hope it all works out nicely. Ciao~

soon, real soon...

Yes! I finally finished my report, now all I have left are two assignments and the construction of my truss. I got my 140 project (Part 3) back too, and I got 48.5/50... which ain't too bad, but Allan beat me by 0.5... ALLAN BEAT ME BY 0.5!!!! ARGH! Yes, I can be competitive, especially with 140, since its the easiest subject for me.

Exams are coming up too soon. It feels too close for comfort, I think I'll start studying this Saturday when I'm feeling better rested.

And I'm still kinda stuck on Bic Runga's songs... Its not my fault that sometimes I feel that I can relate to the lyrics...

when love calls, how sudden the fall;
but falling is the easiest part...

I kinda missed out on my 121 lecture today. I felt too hungry, and I went with Matt (or Mat? I forget how these nicks go) to Subway for a quick breakfast... Mmm, that roast lamb sub is quite good. But now that's two Mechanics lectures I've missed already... Ah well, I'll just have to put in extra effort then. Sigh. I don't think I would have concentrated with those hunger pangs anyway...

I had a little bit of a chat with Matt too whilst waiting for 211/Maths to start. It appears that he has some stuff in common with me, as is expected, but otherwise we're very much different. We're both Asian, (wow, big obvious observation), and to some degree, we enjoy cooking/food preparation, and we like cheeses, and perhaps some other foods I can't remember... oh! That green curries. And the similarities end about there. He's athletic, I'm very much less so, he dislikes coffee, I love it. I would spend lots of money on clothes, or technology, he would spend it on getting a new bike. I can't imagine how a good bike would cost more than 5 grand.... ><>

Hmm, yeah I'm actually kinda bored right now, which is why I'm randomly cataloguing this. Oh, did I neglect to mention I already knew him, sorta, from last year? He was in my MAX course then (accelerated maths paper taken in college/uni). So yeah, then I met one of his friends, Ash (I think that's his name, I really can't remember), who I realized did MAX with us too... Strangely enough, he's one of those whites who seems to have a lot of Asian friends. Like almost as if he belongs in an Asian posse. Except that the Asian group in question is hardly Asian in personality... Uhm, its kinda hard to explain.

I can't believe I just devoted two paragraphs to this. I'm sorry to any readers who are rolling their eyes in frustration at this rather mundane post. I probably should actually go to sleep. Ciao~

if i had you...

Man, that song by Bic Runga (title above) can reflect my mood so much at times. Its making me so very wistful...

Sigh, I shouldn't be getting so down. Exams are coming up, I can't afford to falter now. But you know, when you're not sure if there's ever a possibility, and especially when it seems that window is closing so rapidly on you, one can help but pause and try to enjoy the light it brings, even with bittersweet feelings.

That's how I'm feeling right now... Ah, maybe its just another lesson for me to have, perhaps it should stay as it was, just a brief encounter. One to illuminate my path, one to provide the brief spark to my life. And who knows, other such moments may come again.

'cause in the warm, warm night,
does nothing stir your cold, cold heart?
there's not a thing that I can do to belong...


Its not over yet, though, so at least I should just soak in the sunshine. Then it will all end, with the heart of winter. Mayhap another such brief spark shall keep me warm through the winter.
Why is it then that I act as if the whole matter was past? Perhaps I just wish to dismiss it, so I give up hope now rather than later. After all, things are easier to cut away when nipped at the bud. Even if there's a chance it may flourish and bloom. The slightest, most remote chance. But is it really worth it setting yourself up for the disappointment? I really don't know, I really don't...

lol

I got this text from one of my mates yesterday, I thought it was a good laugh, but not everyone found it funny... =(

Here goes:

Mongo is a little Zimbabwean orphan who walks 5 miles to school each day.

With your kind donation of just $2 a month, we can buy a whip and make the lazy cunt run.

LOL. Did anyone find that funny? Or am I just a little sadistic?

><

Eep... Somehow I knew that I should have just forged ahead yesterday and made that joke about me being huge when I had the opportunity with Richard? Why? 'Cause he just did that to me today... It somehow started with us comparing how big our hands were, and obviously it progressed to a joke on his behalf about him being huge. -_-" I so knew that would happen.

And Richard started teasing me again =( He introduced me to one of his mates (I think he's called Josh, my bad memory's muddling me) as Gay-briel... And then they double-teamed me >< That dude made some mention about a girl being called "Gay", and then added: "Not that it will make much of a difference for you" =O Evil evil people. Goddamn Richard...

Haha, apparently I was flirting with Oliver, or making gay passes at him without intending to... I don't know how Olie thought that, but he did. And I guess it has some credence, but its only very very slight... And you'd have to be stretching it a little to actually make it a pass. Maybe Oliver has a huge ego. Ah well, why do I have to have egoistic people for friends... >< Like attracts like I guess, but now I have no room for my own ego =(

I lost my house keys too, so I just wasted another $20ish making another duplicate copy, since it hasn't made its way back to the Engineering Lost & Found yet =( How sad, money wasted that could have been put to better use, like food or coffee =\

Alright, ciao for now.

ARGH!

I fucked up my mechanics test. Really, really badly... I can't believe how badly I did, considering I knew how to do EVERYTHING. Gah, and such silly mistakes too. Like integrating -t/6 wrt t. I wrote -(t^2)/3 instead of -(t^2)/12... ><>

But on another note, its over. And I did get 34/36 for my ENGGEN 140 test (BioChem) =D I can't believe they took one mark of me for my explanation of a chemical that inhibits ATP synthesis through the electron transport chain being used as a diet pill. I mean seriously, there's not much more to say beyond it causing people to burn more food/fat/whatever 'cause they don't get enough energy right? Stingy markers.

Heh, Richard has a tendency to say the most uhm, possibly disturbing things and yet remain completely oblivious as to the possible implications. Or maybe my mind's too polluted. We went to have butter chicken before MM2 (maths) began, and he got a slightly bigger portion than I did. He attributed it to me being already huge (ha ha ha...) and him being small. Well, the small bit was waaay before, but him saying I was huge went like this: "But Gabriel, you're sooo huge!"

Did anyone get that? Or was it just my dirty mind? I didn't say anything back to him then, but I did kinda chuckle, a little. In a non-suggestively non-dirty sense, that is, and he remained yet completely oblivious to it -_-" Maybe I should have said: "Damn right, I'm huge" (with raised eyebrows =P)

You know, the prefects at my old school have been bugging me to go to the school ball... I don't even remember when it is anymore... Probably around my birthday... I don't really feel like going though. Why? Several reasons:
1) They're like school people. And we have little in common to talk about these days. (Edit: Whoa, I just noticed that the previous sentence sounds so blond...)
2) They probably wouldn't care too much anyway.
3) I don't have anything to wear to the ball. Clubbing clothes don't count...
4) I'll be going by myself... Since no person in AU wants to go to a school ball. I mean, engineers would rather go to the engineering ball.
So, I'm just making excuses. But I'm kinda running low on excuses, so the next time someone asks me why I'm not going, I'll just say: "'Cause I want to bring a guy along?" I think that'd work well. Then Jase chipped in when I was randomly mentioning that and he suggested I say: "I can't find a guy from school to go with" Well, that ought to make them stop asking, I hope. And there really are no girls that I know from school that I'd go with anyway. The one predictable
thing about high school, is they're so phobic, in a sense. Its almost funny in a way. That excuse will always allow you to get away with going to any high school functions requiring a partner.

Yes, I say what I please as long as it gives me the desired effect. So what do I care about what people think? I am what I am, and I know what I am. (Dumb phrasing, gosh, I almost sound like 50cent *cringe* *shudder*)

Alright, I should get some study done, or at least my assignments done. Have to finish my truss design + group report by Wednesday, so I aim to get most of it done by the weekend. Then maybe I can play Two Worlds for a good bit. Till later, ciao~

P/S: I wanna watch Pirates of the Caribbean 3!!! And Zodiac too! Sigh, I've got to get around to asking someone to watch it with me, maybe I could tag along with Richard for Pirates 3, and I guess I'll organise an outing with school people for Zodiac...

Bomb Threat

Heh, as preposterous as it sounds, there really was a bomb threat at college again today... Was sitting with Richard eating sushi at the engineering cafe when these guys started hollering at all of us to leave. The reason? A bomb threat.

You know, I don't think anyone believed him, but since he was so insistent, we all just left anyway... Within the space of 10 minutes, police and the firefighters were there. Then the best part came, they closed engineering for the day! NO LECTURES! YES!

Then the down for me came really quickly. I forgot to get my gym gear out of my locker. Sigh, its going to be sitting there till tomorrow. >_< Oh, apparently engineering is only closed till about 4pm, but by then most of us have no lectures anyway, so it amounts to the same thing. And I can't be bothered hanging around till 4pm to get my gym stuff. Went off with Richard and took the Link (the bus that just goes in a loop), since he was going home. I was originally planning to go to Newmarket to do some shopping, but I realised I took the wrong Link, and getting to Newmarket would take too long, so I got off at the university library (funny eh? I caught it from the city and made one huge loop back to college). Then I caught the bus home, ah well.

I guess having that little break, sudden as it is, is always good for me. Everyone, including... dun dun dun, Richard, thought it was a nice change. Coming from him, thats a shock. You'd think that all he ever did was study, heh.

A'ight, I think I'll take a nap. Then study for the Dynamics test that's coming up this Tuesday... Ciao~

P/S: Apparently the Crazed Woman's a genius. According to this guy who works at gym, she has a Master's in Architecture, but she has a head injury or some sort. So she finds some redemption in my judgment, although I still stand by my opinion that she IS strange.

The Child

"Come". The voice beckoned. "Come and find me"

"W-Where are you?" the boy asked, teeth chattering as the wind howled around him.

"If you come, you will find me..."

In the darkness, a child shivered.
One with shadow, one with rain,
Eyes untrained to blinding fog.


"I'm coming to you, but I cannot find you."

"Just a little longer, just a little longer."

"A-Alright, wait for me. I don't want to be alone."

Relentless, unending, pure.
In wind was chaos, calling,
The child hesitated not.


"H-Help me. I can't go any further."

The cacophony of the wind was his sole companion.

"Why didn't you come? I tried to find you..."

Lost, desolate, forgotten.
Mocking, derisive, laughing.
The child moved never again.

justin's going back to christchurch...

Yeah, I met Justin today to give him back his beanie, and he told me that he hadn't been to a lecture for a long time... Apparently, he doesn't like it here, and he's going back to Christchurch when the winter break is over... How sad, that's one less person in Auckland I know. Otherwise, I spent the afternoon just looking around some clothes and shoe stores with him, along Queen St, and High St. I found a few items of interest, and well, I think I'll come back in a little while and buy them...

You know, Richard honestly wouldn't stop calling me Gay-briel. -_-" I've been advised to use some sort of shock-treatment on him by uhm, either making a gay pass on him, or taking a leaf out of one of his classmate's book, dry-humping him from behind... Personally though, I think the latter is a little too out of my style, and I shudder to even try to attempt it...

Ah well, its all good, I'll get him for it sometime later. Also, shock, horror! I sat with Richard in the middle seatings! Well, its just something, considering Richard has a penchant for sitting in the front, and me for sitting at the back. I guess a compromise is good, and I did manage to check my assignment answers with his. (Since he's such the genius -_-)

Met Carol for the first time in a few weeks today. She commented on how everyone at Engineering seemed so busy, which is kind of true I guess, considering how hectic the last few weeks have been... I spent the better portion of my one-hour break catching up with her and giving her some pointers on her course (she's doing Health Science aka PreMed). I kinda feel sorry for Jase while me and Carol were conversing though, since he pretty much got neglected, but ah well... His fault for following me everywhere in between classes. I guess he doesn't really hang around with anyone else anyway...

Went for lunch with Eddie and his significant other Faith at Oporto's as well... I should really get myself to stop spending money, and Faith was really really helpful. She said: "As if any of us would stop spending". >_> Come on, a little faith would help here. No pun intended.

Alright, I need to just finish one more truss and complete the analysis for both of them. After my little nap, or maybe dinner first, then a short nap. I'm extremely sleepy right now... Ciao~

That strange woman...

Heh, I'm incredibly sleepy today. But aside from that, let me tell you all about this crazy woman who I think is a student in Engineering (I don't know what year though)...

There is this woman in Engineering whom, if you pointed out to anyone who studies here, everyone would say was a little weird. Firstly, let me tell you about what she does in the computer labs. Our computer labs, although maybe a little small at times, has sufficiently comfortable chairs that can be easily moved. Instead of taking advantage of this to sit on it however, she apparently eschews the blessing that is the chair, choosing to instead kneel, YES, kneel, on the floor and do her work. This wouldn't be so strange if she didn't constantly make strange noises as well as shift forwards and backwards in an odd manner. She also makes an odd habit of asking people for the time, when firstly, the computers themselves display the time, and the labs also have clocks, and she has a watch strapped to HER WRIST.

Let me tell you something about Engineering students. Even from Day 1, it is pounded into our heads that we are the cream of the crop, the best that New Zealand has to offer (which, as obnoxious as it sounds, I would admit is partially true, considering that they would take in people with the best results, but then again, NZ's exams are easy...) Also know that as the best, the simple operation of a computer should be common sense, especially if you have managed to type in it, log in, download and print, and even burn a CD. Especially burn a CD, since that's relevant here. If you have managed to actually burn a CD prior to trying to load it into the PC's in the lab, how is it that you cannot find the CD drive? HOW?!? She obviously could not find it, and well... There's only so many places this elusive drive can be. Perhaps behind the monitor on that huge black box with a really obvious button that basically screams "Press ME and insert YOUR CD!"? Or how bout on the huge black box down at your feet? Okay, I understand that not all PC's are the same, but the concept behind each one is simple enough, and even grandmothers can locate this drive that she spent minutes searching for, before finally embarrassing herself by asking one of the staff, who gave her an odd look before pointing it out. Its hardly rocket science to me... I think the faculty should perhaps reconsider their entry scheme.

Not only that, but I heard from one of my friends (who I happened to bump into since she and I had no lectures). Well, she told me that our subject in discussion also is apparently a little too slack on personal hygiene, and tolerance for the senses of others at that. While my friend was at the labs, cheerfully completing her assignments and such, Crazed Woman walks into the lab and sits right next to her. That was fine with her, and she continues. Then, Crazed Woman takes off her boots. Now, all I can say is, I don't want to imagine the smell emanating from her feet. Needless to say, she wasn't wearing socks, and my poor friend could not take the smell considering it pretty much stunk up the row she was in.

My friend also mentioned something else. Apparently, Crazed Woman stuffs tissue down her shirt. Okay, I understand if woman feel flat chested, and so does my friend, but she adds that instead of being a little bit sneakier about it, she makes her shirt stuffing a little too obvious. As in, you can clearly see the lumps of misshapen tissue. And not only that, but you can also see tissue poking from the neckline, and I've been told that once, her stuffing fell out of her shirt while she was walking. Thankfully, she didn't notice, or what she'll have done next will probably have induced post-traumatic stress to any witnesses in the vicinity.

And oh! I neglect to mention her weird liking for occupying multiple seats. In the engineering cafe, which is a rather long and wide area, people are often found there socializing or otherwise doing work. She, however, has this strange habit. She will firstly, drag a table and a chair to the edge of the cafe to sit in the sunshine. Well, this isn't so strange yet, but... After somehow managing to fill up the whole table with her things, she will order a filtered coffee or something, and walk over to another table at the OTHER END of the place with her coffee and more things, and start having coffee there. So, she has just managed to occupy two tables on opposite ends of the area. Then, she begins to shuffle back and forth, shuttling her things back and forth from one table to the next, sometimes dragging additional chairs to her table in the process... Right...

Right, I know that bit awhile ago was a tad random, but I happened across it by accident... I swear >_> Reading one of Lionel's recent posts suddenly about him being, uhh... innuendo-ed made me kinda remember stuff.... Such as how I seem to meet people who keep giving me odd glance-stares (that sorta thing, you know, where they look at you, then look away, then look at you... and like the glances tend to be more than fleeting) And the more you look, the more they look back, and it just gets awkward... And oddly, hmm, now that I think of it, they're gay. Can't exactly explain how I know (not that I wish to be obnoxious or assumptive), but maybe I've got some sort of "gaydar" or something as they term it, lol... Or maybe I'm a gay magnet too at that. LOL. Ok, I need to give the ego a rest before it gets too big =P

I dunno, its odd. Then again..... I've also had a few people I know joking about me being gay >_> Heh, I don't know whether to be flattered or insulted at times with these sort of people. Sigh... I need a good romance-ish story (in a non-sappy way, maybe sad) to read. Maybe it'll help to occupy some time for me... And take my mind of thinking of things... Especially since I don't really want to think of some right now...

Soooo.... I've still got a BioChem project to do, and I'm blogging away like there's no tomorrow. So much for productivity... I've gotten quite a bit lazier since I came here...

Ah well, screw BioChem for tonight, I'll just chill and chat.

I'm Blue... no seriously

Take the Magic: The Gathering 'What Color Are You?' Quiz.

pensive

Yeah, I don't know whats with me, but I'm feeling peckish for coffee again...

I installed Vista Professional awhile ago... After all, its free for me, and completely legit too, so I guess I don't mind...

Does anyone know much at all about trusses? I'm doing a project where I construct a truss of hot-dog sticks, and I would love some input/advice on how I should strengthen my truss...

Been listening to this song by Michelle Branch recently...

Well, that's all from me now... Cinnamon Dolce Latte from Starbucks is delicious by the way...

Ciao~


chaque fois que tu t'en vas, je prétend que tout va bien
Michelle Branch - 'Til I Get Over You

FINISHED!!!! YUSSSSSSSSSS!

Just had to get it out of my system, I'm quite exhilarated, but I still have a BioChem project and another Maths assignment. Gah. At least Design's done for the moment....

It seems I'm one of the only few people who ain't going back to Kuching this year, again. Tis sad, tis so sad... Ah well, I guess I'm losing touch with most of them now anyway. Maybe I should have made an effort to stay in touch more, or then again, what good might it have done?

Meh, no point worrying about things like these. My brain must be warping from drinking again. Heh, that's amusing, drinking while writing out my design project. I hope nothings wrong with it... But I don't honestly think I was that addled anyway... So it should be all good...

Look at me, just rambling on and on. I should go get some sleep for today. I'm off. Peace.

P/S: I don't really understand what it is with Richard and him teasing me about being gay... Ah well, maybe its my name after all. Gay-briel... -_-" He amuses me enough as it is, so I guess I won't hold a silly grudge against him anyway...

Design project due tomorrow, I still have the report to write out. I can't believe I did most of the work on my own, and that my team's probably doing the same, despite it being teamwork... But ah well, as long as my tutor doesn't mind and I get it done, right? I only borrowed the concept drawings, cause I'm like the crappiest artist ever.

I strained a muscle at gym yesterday. It fucking hurts every time I laugh, cough, or stretch. Its annoying, I think I'll go to physio tomorrow and get it checked up. No proper sleep for 3 days in a row, and I'm glad for the holiday on Thursday that is Engineering Graduation. Apparently, engineering lecturers in Auckland Uni have like the highest graduation attendance among the rest of the faculties. Its a good thing, regardless, I get to sleep in or shop or study at my own pace. Maybe more sleep than not, but whatever.

Alright, back to my design project report. Ciao~


If I just breathe, let it fill the space between
I'll know everything is alright...
Breathe - Michelle Branch

Me:i love my saute pan
Tom:I love a good saute
Me:who doesnt? they're wonderful things
Tom:They are indeed


Tom:You are my hero gabe
Tom:MY FREAKIN HERO!!
Me:aww
Me:yay!


Me:haha, clever
Tom:sankku
Me: :O omg! you're japanese! or korean! gah.... lemme amend that...
:O omg! you're asian!


Tom:I shall do my best
Me:awesome dude. love ya lots
Tom:And I you gabe
Me:awww, thats sweet


Man, of all the random things to be said in an MSN conversation, I'd say most of my conversations with Tom (or Thomas, whatever) tend to be like this. But its good fun, at least I still keep in touch with people now and then from school and all. Its feels like forever since I left high school now... And Tom's always funny with his Asian accent impersonations. =D

One less project...

And 2 more due soon, with one more coming up. Ah well, at least its progress. Uni today was as per usual, I printed my project really early in the morning to avoid the queue, and submitted it. Starbucks was having their cinnamon dolce latte again, so I had one this morning to shake off the sleepiness from only having 4 1/2 hours of sleep.

I saw Oliver again, I didn't actually think I would, he'd been missing from the past few Mechanics lectures. And he has a haircut, which seems to be some sort of trend. Everyone has had haircuts of late, myself included. Ah well, he just looks really odd... Different I guess. I'll get used to it after a while methinks.

Richard told me he got his design project back already during the tutorial, but I have yet to get mine, since yesterday was a public holiday. I don't think I really want to know what I got... considering it was a really last minute effort on my part. Richard got 19.5/20 but then again, he did spend quite a lot of time on it... So I guess I can say that his efforts paid off.

And oh, I got a little side-tracked on the way home and stopped by Barkers in the mall. Which led to my discovery of a 20% discount sale of everything in stock. And add in the factor that I'm a VIP customer with them, and poof... 30% discount in total!!! So, naturally, I decided to pick up a few things, just like 1 T-shirt, 1 polo shirt, and a military-ish dress shirt, and my bill was already $175 >_> sigh, and that was with all the discounts already calculated too. Ah well, I really needed a few more clothes, although I should have bought more jumpers and sweaters and such instead of T's... Or actually, maybe I should refrain from spending like that.

Hmm, I'm kinda sleepy... All the coffees I had throughout the day are finally starting to wear off, and its only 7.15pm... But I need my sleep too... Ciao for now~

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college has begun anew...

And I'm already tired. Why is it that I wonder? Those holidays were good, despite me not actually doing any work then... I even get another public holiday with Anzac Day coming up this Wednesday... Ah well, I don't know whether its a good thing or not, to be honest...

Biochem was a suprisingly easy test, although I have a feeling I might have made many mistakes in it. For a total of 36 marks (converting to 10%) I think I got 5 marks unaccounted for (I'm just not sure about them)... Just finished Task 2 for my project, so I have one last, daunting task to complete... Go Gabe! That felt odd...

And then after that, a design project (did I mention our design project's quite dumb?). Who on earth would want to wear a DISPOSABLE CAMERA on their biking helmet?!?!?! I mean, honestly. What a dumb proposal. But ah well, I guess it hones our creativity in some weird fashion (except that I have none, along with no sense of humour. You should know, Jase)...

I could rant on and on about the design project, but its just plain annoying. For some odd reason, I keep listening to Bic Runga these few days. I guess it relaxes me, and just reminds me of the holidays... Sigh...

so much for studying...

Yeah, I met up with Allan today to study for our Biochem test on Monday... But instead of studying, we ended up meeting old schoolmates (well, I didn't know all of them, but they knew people I knew, so that's good enough)... And oh, there's always the customary coffee... I'm happy that enough people I know would regularly go for coffee with me... It's good...

Hanging out with old schoolmates... It was quite fun... We ended up sitting in Albert Park on the grass under the sun for almost 2 hours... Just chatting away, and lying there... Come to think of it, I wish moments like that would come more often... I always appreciate just being able to lie in the sun...

And then we just did like 30 minutes of vague study, and then we went to play pool for an hour. I still suck at it anyway, I have this bad habit of continuously flicking the cue ball. I really should get around to correcting that habit, but ah well, old habits (even bad ones) die hard. Otherwise, I think my aim is alright. If only I could just magic away that flicking habit I've got...

Allan's sick already... How sad, he had a sore throat this afternoon when I met up with him. Apparently he'd been laughing too hard. Ah well, fun times for him I guess. I don't laugh a lot so I can't say too much. Hopefully he'll get better before the test though. Wouldn't be a good thing if he's still sick during it, would it now? Well... I really should be getting on with my project

purpose

You know, after so long, I finally have another idea for a short story to write. Not going to spill much details, but if I do write it, it'll only be several chapters long at maximum. I personally can't guarantee a story longer than 1 chapter sometimes, I tend to condense my stories way too quickly.

Sigh, it seems my mellow mood is far from over... I'm awake at 9pm after a little nice night of alcoholic drinks, and still nicely awake writing this... Although perhaps I won't go to gym today, which isn't a good thing at all, because I'll be missing my workout for the rest of the week, but ah well... I think I hurt myself the last time. Excuses, excuses, I know.

Well, I'm off in a little while to go to the city to meet Allan for lunch and study. Perhaps I should get a haircut and a pair of leather gloves while I'm there... My hair is getting long already, or rather, my fringe is getting a little annoying. And my hands are, well, chilled on some days here... Gloves would complement my coat in that regard.

Sometimes I get this feeling on odd calm, but it makes me nervous in a way. Kind of like the calm in a storm, but why do I feel like that? I don't know, I'm a little confused myself. I don't know what to expect, I guess I'm used to expected nothing more than trouble and trials throughout my life. I may be justified thinking that however, but we shall see how it comes shan't we?

You know, after all these years, I still feel purposeless in life to quite a large degree. I guess I will come to understand my role and significance in this life later, or maybe I'll just live it not ever realising what it is. A sad possibility, but a very possible one at that. Sigh, I need more friends to be with all the time. A selfish thing to wish so, but friends keep me away from thinking like this. I guess I really do think too much.

I should get some breakfast to eat. Ciao.

Stranded in June, whistling the same old tune;
But I do believe I might be having fun

I'm in a supremely mellow mood today. Ah well, you can blame it on the music I've been listening to lately... Heh, still too relaxed despite having a test next Monday and two projects due on Wednesday and Thursday again. I've made some progress in the projects, but not that much that I'm supposed to be comfortable enough.

Something good will come our way;
And maybe this good thing's gonna happen today

Maybe I should stop listening to this for the meantime, but I'm worried if I stop, I might lose the sense of lull and peace I seem to be having. And I'm not sure how many people do know, but I rarely have moments, what more to say, extended moments of peace...

I know romance is not in fashion;
And my heart is on the line;
If you would be so kind to help me kill some time.
Something good just might come crashing;
From the stars that light the sky;
If you would be so kind to help me kill some time.

Listening to:
Bic Runga - Get Some Sleep
Bic Runga - Something Good

Packed...

No, I wasn't packing to leave.... But I meant my day was packed... Went to the gym today like 1 hour after waking up, and since my gym's right at uni, I went to meet John and his friends studying at Level 0... There were so many random Asians at his table too, but I guess he's Asian, and so am I for that matter... An oddity was this guy Von and his bro, (forgot his name again >_>). They were both from the Philippines, but like Von didn't look like it. Compared to his brother, who was darker and looked more Philippino, he was like fairer, and I would have thought he had mixed blood if he didn't tell me he was a pure. Odd eh...

Then I came home, had dinner, and went out again. Joy! I keep going out it seems. Went out with my sis, Denise, and Justin to like Sylvia Park, which was pretty impressive compared to all the other crappy malls in Auckland. And the food choices there were awesome! Wagamama... mmm... delicious... Of course, I wished I had more time to actually go around and look for some stuff I wanted (which were like scarves, gloves, and sweaters), but seeing as Denise was only going to be here till Tuesday (I think, before she goes back to Melbourne), I thought I'd just come back later...

Coffee was good as well, although costly, from the place called The Coffee Club. Hardly original in name, but hey, I'm not complaining... The main problems would be the price on everything. Melting Moments for $3.30 each when I can get the exact same thing from another cafe at $1.50 each... And this is with knowing that cafes already rip you off...

Well, since I had already eaten (and obviously, so had my sis), whereas Justin and Denise hadn't, we just dropped by Burger Fuel, which has rather delicious burgers (and chips) by the way. Apparently it was Justin's first time being in Burger Fuel (I guess they didn't have it down in Christchurch), and well, he liked it, so all good. I wish malls here would close later. Sylvia Park started closing at 9... Sad =( so we went to MoMoTea for bubble tea (yay for Asian habits!) and barbeque. Their lamb is godly... I'm still drooling thinking of it right now... Somehow we managed to stay there till a little past midnight, so I guess it was pretty good fun.

Back now anyway, and I can tell this post is rather boring, but it was an interlude between doing assignments and not doing assignments for me... Which reminds me, I should save up more money so I can buy myself decent shoes for semi-dress streetwear. Sigh, I'm so bad at saving money...

Alright, enough for now. Hmm, Justin left his beanie in the car again... Did I mention that Justin looks completely TAIWANESE? Especially with his new haircut and glasses, and uhh... beanie? Hehe, I should take a picture and post it up... Anyway, I'm off, ciao...

Advanced Global Personality Test

Well, I saw this on one of my mate's sites... so its sitting on the bottom of my blog now... The link to it's there as well... Go try it out, I found it rather suprising...

Holidays... not...

Well, yeah, haven't been blogging in a while, but then again I had all that influx of sudden projects due (or more likely because I ignored them until they were due on me in a few days =P). Even with the "holidays" having started, I wouldn't call it much of one. I still have three or four projects due sometime after the holidays, about a week after. And to boot, I have another test worth 10% right on the first day. So much for enjoyment.

I guess I should get myself organised into doing stuff for the holidays, but I'm kinda lazy... We'll see, we'll see.... As well as save some money. Jeez gabe, you'd think you could eat less food. Ah well, and then of course to remember to factor in time to do work. I'm saying 25 hours or so should cover it, given that I actually do work then...

Speaking of which, I downloaded S.T.A.L.K.E.R. sometime back then when I was finishing my projects. Its not a bad game, but I guess they could do some fixing and such. Really good concept though. And there's this free-to-play online game (they earn revenue by in-game ads and a customer mall) called 9Dragons. Its not too bad actually... I mean I play it when I have some free time. Although sometimes I feel like I'm just grinding away, and that kinda galls me. They really should have better quests, but its free.

Went to Phil's Good Friday drinks thing. It was uhh, strange. I don't know what those people are, I guess I can't call them emo, cause they aren't, but they dress similar to them, but are not goth. And they act really... weird... Suffice to say, I didn't stay long there. I felt very much not-at-ease. I mean, 3-5 of them in any party's alright with me, but more than that and I get very uneasy. They are such strange people...

Anyway, gotta go. I'm off to a dinner. Ciao~

Buying: Pure Determination, Distilled.

I'm in sore need of it. I have a test in two days, and a project I don't know how to do due in 1 1/2 weeks, and what am I doing just blogging away instead of studying/working? Argh!!! I really wish I could actually be determined for once to do something, but I don't know why, maybe I'm not determined enough to be determined. Ironic...

The strange thing about college/university is that as it gets more interesting, it also gets a whole lot busier and progressively more hectic. But I guess one cannot exist without the other. Sigh...

Anyway, perhaps I should isolate myself from the computer in a futile effort to study. Too bad I can't do that for my project, cos the computer is required in it... >_> ciao~

Sore...

Yeah, I'm sore all over today... Went to gym yesterday, the funny thing was I didn't get sore till like almost exactly 24 hours later, then bam! I couldn't walk properly, I was that sore. Good thing I didn't have to walk up the hill through Albert Park to go back to campus, or I'd have died.

Met Justin for lunch today, haven't actually caught up with him for ages. It was quite fun, really, and I wasn't feeling sore then, so I didn't mind walking through Albert Park. And yes, he still smokes. I guess everyone has their vices. Like he said, "you have your caffeine, and I have my nicotine". Heh.

Projects are starting to come up. Got projects for all my subjects but Mechanics so far. Sigh...

Anyway, kind of tired. Ciao~

So Busy....

I guess I could say that college has finally begun in earnest. I just had a test for a maths paper last Wednesday, and its worth 10% of my final grade. And its based on the paper last year!!! I could barely even remember what I did last year, what more to say I could remember what I studied last year. Ah well, at least there's a resit in two weeks.

Also got like 2 assignments to complete this week, I think by next Wednesday. Sigh, it wouldn't be so bad if one of them wasn't a Engineering Design paper. They're making me do copious amounts of orthographic drawings, and I really hate it. So what if I don't have a great mental capability for 3D visualisation? Sue me, then.

As I've said before, Bio & Chem has got to be the easiest subject around. And oh, BE (Bachelor of Engineering) students have to do some weird English language competency test. Don't ask me why, but I think its so basic that anyone who fails should be deported, immediately. Ah well, I'm equally discriminative, so what?

Anyway, met this guy, Oliver, who's either in his 4th or 3rd year in college now (can't exactly recall). He was doing BioInfomatics before he decided that he might want to do a BE, and so he's in one BE 1st year class, Mechanics. And well, I reckon he's pretty cool. Old enough for me to feel like I can look up to him somewhat, but not too old that I would shun him =P

Right, gotta get back to my assignments. Ciao

BORIIIING

Yeah, my uni's dull. Orientation was a failure, in my opinion at least, and lectures are really really dull. Had trouble staying awake through any of them, with the exception of Mechanics. Math Modeling 2 was so boring that it was a miracle I made it through alive, although asleep. And yes, I have a test based on Math Modeling 1 next Wednesday. Serve me right for doing it last year. I really can't remember a thing from it. >_> Looks like I might fail the test, and it's worth 10% of my final grade even. Grr...

At least its kinda picking up, albeit a little too slow for my taste. Don't know what clubs I should join really, way too many to pick from. Don't exactly feel like joining purely Asian clubs, but then again, I'm at a loss, especially because I don't want to join the Drinking Club.

And I don't know what is it with all the first year classes wanting to give diagnostic tests. Like Bio/Chem. It was so simple that if I failed to ace it, I'd personally kick myself in the ass. Well, figuratively of course. But it was so unbelievably easy anyway. Like this:

Which of the following is not an organ?
a) Skin b) Lungs c)Large intestine d)Heart e)Muscle

Wow... that was hard wasn't it? You get the picture.

Anyway, gotta run. Lantern festival's being held all through this weekend. Maybe I'll go tomorrow night. Ciao.

What is your poison?

Do share... Mine's coffee, and spirits.

Happy CNY!

Right... Usual blah crap, happy cny, yadeeyadeeya, etc, blah blah. My family reunion dinner isn't really one. Considering its just me, my sis and my mum. Dad's well. In Malaysia, so he's going to his family's one in Miri.

I kinda detest CNY at times. Its so dull at the moment. And Lifehouse is getting stuck on my mind more than ever. Not a good sign I guess. Off to looking for computer parts online. Ciao

the calm before the storm.

Its beginning... And I cannot find the calm to walk in the maelstrom...

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

I know... utterly random, but yet another Lifehouse song stuck in my head. Amazing...

Valentine's

Yeah, you'd think that I'd be writing this post saying I went out with my valentine's and all, but truthfully. I don't have one. That wasn't going to stop me from going out. I went out with the other bachelors today. Well, the ones not in school anyway. Had heaps of fun in the city. Went for Rocky Balboa and then two hours of pool.

Rocky Balboa... What can I say... It was alright I guess, but it isn't the kind of movie I'd recommend for you all. Well... I mean the fight scene at the end, although good, was a tad too short. And it only lasted for like what 30 mins, when the whole movie was 1hr 45 mins. Which means, the only good bit was the last 1/3 of the movie. And then again, they didn't show the whole 10 rounds. And he's just too old. I honestly fell asleep during the first hour, if you must know. Perhaps some people would feel differently about this, but that's what I think about this movie. Do not spend money on it. If you must watch, go get the pirated version, downloaded or otherwise. Or wait till someone gets it on DVD, rented or otherwise. Then borrow/watch it. Seriously.

Other than that, nothing much else to say. I was thinking of going over to Melbourne sometime during this year to visit people, both from Malaysia and New Zealand. Cool eh? We'll see about that though. I have to get it sorted. Maybe I'll go in winter, cos well... Summer I have to work. So winter sounds best. And I turn 18 about winter (southern hemisphere), so that'll be all sweet. Well, off I go then. Ciao.

Tasteless

I swear somethings wrong with my taste buds. Last night, I went over to Sarah's for her and Hannah's farewelling party thing. And predictably, there were drinks. Well, I skipped the beer and opted for Smirnoff Ices and those blue vodka things. Then we progressed to screwdrivers. And yes, there was food. Barbeque I think. Can't really remember what exactly.

Oh! We played Buzz too. Goddamn I was so buzzer-happy then. And uhh, there was Singstar. And I pwnt them all, for well. Any song that didn't require me to castrate myself like The Darkness. Arnold probably showed up earlier, and obviously we were still drinking. I forgot my togs, so I didn't get in the pool. I know my writing's really disjointed, but my head's a little like that at the moment.

Then at some point, Arnold wanted me to do 3 Galliano shots in a row. Or maybe I did two the last time in a row, and he wanted me to do one more. Whatever. Don't really remember. The only thing I can say is, I swear I couldn't taste those shots. I thought it was water they were giving me. They adamantly protested otherwise. And well, considering I did feel the hit quite a while after, I suppose they were right. I dunno, it was supposed to taste like anise, or maybe liquorice. Or something. But that's where it doesn't make sense. I did not taste anything, except water. Maybe my taste buds are fucked up. Ah well. Cos I did taste the vodka, I'm sure... Hmm, wait, did I do vodka after those shots?

Ah whatever, going to get a bit more sleep. Only had 4 hours of sleep total. Kept waking up intermittently. And my head's kinda spinning. Ciao

"Keep your friends close, keep your enemies closer"

I re-watched Cruel Intentions recently, and well, it was still good the second time round. Although I think I preferred Match Point as a whole for being a re-watchable movie. I liked that quote above very much. Should be pretty obvious too. But honestly, how many people do you see doing that? Sadly, its only those people who are so manipulative that they probably never have friends. Or if they do, they might not even know who their friends are. I'm glad that I'm not like that, I hope.

Have you ever reached the point when you sometimes feel like ditching the majority of your friends where you are, and just moving on? I'm going through one of those phases. Getting annoyed isn't good for me I guess.

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

Cheer up Gabe. Perhaps patience and determination will get you through.

Blind.

Well. I already know I'm blind. But I'm speaking of the song by Lifehouse. Suddenly decided to go and listen to it, and I find that I like it. If someone could find me songs that are closely similar to it in mood, I'd be happy.

Here goes the huge space filler, the lyrics.:

Blind by Lifehouse

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this while
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

Yeah, I like Lifehouse quite a bit at times. They have the tendency to churn out songs with good lyrics. So what if they're not metal, or rock, or if they're really really mellow. I'm in the mood for it. So well, anyway, my day was practically a waste of time. Did nothing more but sit at home on my ass. And listening to random music, posting in the manga site, and deciding to listen to the Lifehouse song. Anyway, going to read some stories for now. Ciao.

School's Starting...

But not for me!!! Hehe, it's always good to know that while everyone's off to school, which starts tomorrow, I'll be lazing around at home, since I'm off to varsity and I'll have 3 extra weeks of holiday... ^^ Although I probably shouldn't rub it in their faces. Its good that I managed to sort out my student loan and application today, that basically completes the list of things I have to get ready for college. Unless getting a new bag counts. Not that I need one, but... Ah, you know... It'll be nice.

I noticed that life has been grinding down to a very slow pace recently. I'm just waiting for John to finish his summer school exams so I can go computer shopping with him, since he'd be better at haggling than me (and well, he can speak Chinese, so he'll be definitely better at haggling with those Asian dealers). And as for life being slow, probably its because I have a lack of friends who are going to college with me. I guess I never did take the time to extensively socialise and involve myself with the 7th formers (who are starting college with me, as opposed to my 6th form friends). Or maybe they didn't take the time to socialise with me. Ah, who knows. I'm going to college, I can just meet them there. Heh.

Haven't done much today beyond submitting my applications. Did some shopping. Which ain't much, but I got myself a summer jacket and 3 hats. Well, I know its the end of summer, but it was a nice jacket. So sue me. And well, I still want more hats. Didn't manage to find the hat I was looking for. You know, something like a herringbone messenger/courier boy hat? I don't really know what it is called. But well, just wanted one. And maybe a weird fishing hat that would fit me. I think its becoming an obsession now. Oh well, what's life without a vice?

Yeah, I should get around to organising something for me to do this week or the next. The problem is school's started. And well, that just cuts down the number of people available whom I know well to two. Damn. Not much to do with two people as I know it. And it's Valentine's next Wednesday too. The price of roses will be expectedly marked up. I saw it at a florist for $18 a rose in a box. Obviously a red rose, but still. $18 is a tad pricey don't you think?

Hmm, maybe I'll get to re-watching Cruel Intentions or Donnie Darko tonight. Yes, I'm that bored. Well, I'm off. Ciao.