Yes, study leave actually began on wednesday, but I'm just lazy... This year is like the worst year for my exams... I've got 8 bloody exams!!! It goes as such:
Monday 20/11 Physics
Tuesday 21/11 Stats
Wednesday 22/11 English
Friday 24/11 Calculus Scholarship
Monday 27/11 Chemistry
Thursday 30/11 Biology
Friday 1/12 Physics Scholarship
Saturday 2/12 Stats Scholarship
Sigh... and I think I'll fail the scholarship exams... maybe i should just ditch them and settle for 5 exams instead... And studying is really really hard to do now that I'm leaving school... I really can't be bothered, even though i know i should, as my results affect my uni entry but still =\
Speaking of which, on tuesday, some yr 13 guy ran through the school stark naked... i didn't see him, but i hear he got caught, and was banned from going to the leaver's dinner... oh well... i haven't been doing much, save for some trips to the city, and sleep... it's unfortunate that the uni people i know are going off on their trips, since that means i have no one to go out with, as the majority of my classmates are off studying =\
Not much else to say... I should really study >.< Ciao~
Thursday, November 16, 2006
Monday, November 13, 2006
School's ending...
Heh, it's been a very long time since I've written, been busy over the Guy Fawke's weekend and so forth, and yeah, never really found the time to write... School's officially ending tomorrow for us, although exams will start next week, which sucks alot... But yeah, it's kinda nostalgic really, I start to remember stuff that happened, and I begin to hang around/talk to others more... Don't get the impression that I'm a social recluse, but I usually am quite quiet.
I just found my school report after checking the mail today... Apparently we got them on Saturday, but oh well... didn't check, so didn't know... I'm pleased with my progress really, except that I think that my stats teacher wrote generic stuff for my report... "Gabriel's enthusiasm, diligence, and natural ability... a very conscientious and dedicated student who always works meticulously and steadily..." Well, I'd like to point out that I was hardly enthusiaistic about stats, nor close to diligent. Even saying I was dedicated is laughable, but I guess teachers can never be too sure, can they? And my Physics teacher contradicted that directly by saying I "lacked focus at times", lol... I suppose that's only too true, with the exception of "at times", I lacked focus most times! Hehe...
Prefect lists for next year's ... you guessed it, prefects... were out today. Frankly, I don't quite agree with some of the chosen prefects. Quite a few were really dumb (and obnoxious) pricks who I wouldn't have even considered, but then again, my prejudices get the better of me... They might have changed, who knows =\ It's a good thing I decided to leave next year, otherwise they'll be all sorts of strange prefects I'd have to contend with next year *shudder* ... Heh, I wonder if I should have tried for prefectship to see if I'd have made it... I wonder... Hmm... Ah well, too late now anyway...
School's ending tomorrow, bye Mt. Albert Grammar, I'll probably never see you again... Then again, I might, cos my friends will still be there =\ silly buggers who can't go to uni with me... Then again, it's probably better for them that way, otherwise they'll be 17 for the whole first year and miss out on all the alcoholic fun... =P
I forget to mention all the camwhoring that took place, as well as school shirt signing, but maybe I'll mention it later... Hmm, should I have gone for the leaver's dinner? Ah, bugger it, too late to buy tickets anyway, and b'sides, I don't have my dress pants/shoes for it =\ Bugger all... Ciao~
I just found my school report after checking the mail today... Apparently we got them on Saturday, but oh well... didn't check, so didn't know... I'm pleased with my progress really, except that I think that my stats teacher wrote generic stuff for my report... "Gabriel's enthusiasm, diligence, and natural ability... a very conscientious and dedicated student who always works meticulously and steadily..." Well, I'd like to point out that I was hardly enthusiaistic about stats, nor close to diligent. Even saying I was dedicated is laughable, but I guess teachers can never be too sure, can they? And my Physics teacher contradicted that directly by saying I "lacked focus at times", lol... I suppose that's only too true, with the exception of "at times", I lacked focus most times! Hehe...
Prefect lists for next year's ... you guessed it, prefects... were out today. Frankly, I don't quite agree with some of the chosen prefects. Quite a few were really dumb (and obnoxious) pricks who I wouldn't have even considered, but then again, my prejudices get the better of me... They might have changed, who knows =\ It's a good thing I decided to leave next year, otherwise they'll be all sorts of strange prefects I'd have to contend with next year *shudder* ... Heh, I wonder if I should have tried for prefectship to see if I'd have made it... I wonder... Hmm... Ah well, too late now anyway...
School's ending tomorrow, bye Mt. Albert Grammar, I'll probably never see you again... Then again, I might, cos my friends will still be there =\ silly buggers who can't go to uni with me... Then again, it's probably better for them that way, otherwise they'll be 17 for the whole first year and miss out on all the alcoholic fun... =P
I forget to mention all the camwhoring that took place, as well as school shirt signing, but maybe I'll mention it later... Hmm, should I have gone for the leaver's dinner? Ah, bugger it, too late to buy tickets anyway, and b'sides, I don't have my dress pants/shoes for it =\ Bugger all... Ciao~
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Nearly forgot this...
It's been nearly a month now since I last posted here, but considering that nothing much happened that I can remember anyway, oh well... The holidays passed rather quickly, I must say... I haven't got much done at all, and dad came over during the last two weeks... I didn't much beyond bring him places in Auckland, which ain't much 'cos it's rather dreary... And of course I got him to buy me booze... My friends seem rather shocked that my dad would be willing to buy me booze, but I frankly don't see the trouble/problem... Well, I guess I'm ignorant...
Today was a day like most others, boring, boring, and even more boring... And oh, I got Excellence for my Bio internal again, which I spent only an hour in class on, as opposed to everyone else (3 hours)... so, up yours, everyone... I think I'm getting more arrogant... But school's not helping... And I got Excellence for the English internal which I decided to resit... Well, only because the topic in question was my forte, that being fantasy novels, in which I could write the first chapter... I think it's really fun to do fantasy, must be because of all that books I've read...
Well, the other thing of note happening today... I was walking home (as I always do) when I kinda saw some person up ahead walking... Well, he (I think it was a he) had a cloak or coat of some sort on... It was a rather nice article of clothing, and I was looking for that to add to my winter wear for some time (don't ask why he was wearing winter wear in the middle of spring)... Well, the thing was, he turned right off into another road, and I turned into the other road too, as I was also going in that direction. However, when I made the turn, he was gone... And, well, you might not really see how I find that strange, but the thing is there is no way he could have walked that fast, and the only way he could go was down the road... So it was like he vanished, in a sense, as if he was a figment of my imagination... But then, was he? Maybe I was hallucinating, maybe I'm very tired, ah well... I noticed that my way of writing this blog has changed somewhat, but I'm not entirely sure how...
Crazy P!ATD song stuck in my head:
And isn't this exactly where you like me
I'm exactly where you like me you know...
I guess I should get going... Sigh, I should start studying for my exams soon, considering they're like my last for school... Ciaoz~
Today was a day like most others, boring, boring, and even more boring... And oh, I got Excellence for my Bio internal again, which I spent only an hour in class on, as opposed to everyone else (3 hours)... so, up yours, everyone... I think I'm getting more arrogant... But school's not helping... And I got Excellence for the English internal which I decided to resit... Well, only because the topic in question was my forte, that being fantasy novels, in which I could write the first chapter... I think it's really fun to do fantasy, must be because of all that books I've read...
Well, the other thing of note happening today... I was walking home (as I always do) when I kinda saw some person up ahead walking... Well, he (I think it was a he) had a cloak or coat of some sort on... It was a rather nice article of clothing, and I was looking for that to add to my winter wear for some time (don't ask why he was wearing winter wear in the middle of spring)... Well, the thing was, he turned right off into another road, and I turned into the other road too, as I was also going in that direction. However, when I made the turn, he was gone... And, well, you might not really see how I find that strange, but the thing is there is no way he could have walked that fast, and the only way he could go was down the road... So it was like he vanished, in a sense, as if he was a figment of my imagination... But then, was he? Maybe I was hallucinating, maybe I'm very tired, ah well... I noticed that my way of writing this blog has changed somewhat, but I'm not entirely sure how...
Crazy P!ATD song stuck in my head:
And isn't this exactly where you like me
I'm exactly where you like me you know...
I guess I should get going... Sigh, I should start studying for my exams soon, considering they're like my last for school... Ciaoz~
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Monotonous boredom
Well, it's holidays, and I suppose I should be somewhat glad, right? But, truth to tell, it's rather dreary here... So monotonous, I wake up, brush teeth, etc, etc etc, then go online... then shower, then eat, then go offline... and perhaps shove in some research work... >.< I should organise stuff to do, but it's too much of a hassle for me these days, considering that I always end up doing the organising... I'm going to end up ranting again -_-"
Besides that, there isn't really much to update for my life so far, since I didn't do much except go to city to do some research... It's great since its spring... so much warmer, and i must be having spring goggles or something (think beer goggles)... Heh, anywayz, I must be off... Ciaoz~
Besides that, there isn't really much to update for my life so far, since I didn't do much except go to city to do some research... It's great since its spring... so much warmer, and i must be having spring goggles or something (think beer goggles)... Heh, anywayz, I must be off... Ciaoz~
Friday, September 22, 2006
TGI FRIDAY!!!!
It's the holidays...!!! Holidays!!! Yeah!!! I'm so high!!! Hehe, not going to tell you why =P ... In school atm, writing in my blog, which is really dumb, since they might trace it, but meh... I got all my exam results, and I'm pleased to say... I PASSED EVERY ONE OF MY EXAMS!!! YEAH!!! I JUST OWNED YOU, EXAMS!!! UP YOURS!!! WOOHOO!!!!
The split-up version of my results? Here: (E= Excellence, M= Merit, A= Achieved)
English:
Unfamiliar (E)
Visual Text (A)
Non-Shakespearean (M)
Shakespearean (M)
Stats:
Probability (E)
Probability Distribution (E)
Linear Equations (M)
Confidence Intervals (M)
Physics:
Electricity (E)
Mechanics (M)
Waves (E)
Chem:
Reduction-oxidation (M)
Organic (M)
Structure and bonding (M)
Aqueous Systems (A)
Bio:
Genetics (M)
Ecology (M)
Cells (E)
Yeah, I'm abit of a showoff =P but I'm drunk, so tooooooo bad!!! It's so fun now that holidays are beginning, I finished all my homework too, with the exception of Bio research... so yeah... I'm off to do some research in my semi-drunk state =P Typing this took me ages... Peaceout~
The split-up version of my results? Here: (E= Excellence, M= Merit, A= Achieved)
English:
Unfamiliar (E)
Visual Text (A)
Non-Shakespearean (M)
Shakespearean (M)
Stats:
Probability (E)
Probability Distribution (E)
Linear Equations (M)
Confidence Intervals (M)
Physics:
Electricity (E)
Mechanics (M)
Waves (E)
Chem:
Reduction-oxidation (M)
Organic (M)
Structure and bonding (M)
Aqueous Systems (A)
Bio:
Genetics (M)
Ecology (M)
Cells (E)
Yeah, I'm abit of a showoff =P but I'm drunk, so tooooooo bad!!! It's so fun now that holidays are beginning, I finished all my homework too, with the exception of Bio research... so yeah... I'm off to do some research in my semi-drunk state =P Typing this took me ages... Peaceout~
Saturday, September 16, 2006
My day...
Haha, what a funny day today was... But first, the bad news... I got charged today for my careless naive surfing on the net... Woke up this morning to find my credit balance was: $ 0.00.... I got owned!!! >.<>.< But the upside was, I got a free drink, which apparently was due to release sometime soon, in celebration of halloween... The problem is the flavour... Pumpkin... Ewwwwwwwwww.... Imagine, 2 shots of espresso, with foamed milk for a latte, and with pumpkin syrup... Ugh.,... It tasted so much like pumpkin.... But it was free, so yeah...
Then we went off to Duncan's place, or rather, I got ditched there, cos Chris had to go home for abit... And I helped Duncan clean up the house a little... Well, actually, I kinda stood there most of the time, talking to him while he was cleaning out his room... =P And looking at his primary school photos =P He's so small... and kinda adorable, in a kid adorable way... y'know... I think he kinda resented me saying that, but it's honest fact =P Then Ben came, and Chris came abit later, and Jase couldn't come... oh well...
Let's just say the night passed rather quickly, and I pity the poor people on CS who were listening to what Ben was talking about on the mic... Let's just say, it was pretty... uhh... disgusting and wrong... But it was hilarious at the time he said it... LOLZ... I'm still laughing now... Hehe, home now, since I got a ride home with Chris ^^ Probably going to sleep soon... Ciaoz all~
Then we went off to Duncan's place, or rather, I got ditched there, cos Chris had to go home for abit... And I helped Duncan clean up the house a little... Well, actually, I kinda stood there most of the time, talking to him while he was cleaning out his room... =P And looking at his primary school photos =P He's so small... and kinda adorable, in a kid adorable way... y'know... I think he kinda resented me saying that, but it's honest fact =P Then Ben came, and Chris came abit later, and Jase couldn't come... oh well...
Let's just say the night passed rather quickly, and I pity the poor people on CS who were listening to what Ben was talking about on the mic... Let's just say, it was pretty... uhh... disgusting and wrong... But it was hilarious at the time he said it... LOLZ... I'm still laughing now... Hehe, home now, since I got a ride home with Chris ^^ Probably going to sleep soon... Ciaoz all~
Friday, September 15, 2006
My phone...
Its suprising how little you sometimes know about your own phone... For one, I knew I could use my phone as a modem, but not that it connects with theoretical speeds of 460 kbps!!! >.<>.< ... what I do KNOW is... I've been connected to it for about 25 mins now... so if they're going to charge... it's sooooo gonna cost me.... or perhaps they charge by the amount of packets received and sent... Either way, I'm pretty much screwed >.< >.< >.<
Nuuuuuuuu!!!! How does vodafone not have any info on this? Damn you, useless vodafone NZ >.< >.< ..... Gah... screw it, if I run out of credit, so be it...
Nuuuuuuuu!!!! How does vodafone not have any info on this? Damn you, useless vodafone NZ >.< >.< ..... Gah... screw it, if I run out of credit, so be it...
Thursday, September 14, 2006
It's over!!!
Yeah! Exams are soooooo over =D At long last, 7 days after it has begun, it is now finished... for the time being, that is... until like another 3 months or so >.< You know, I have this nagging feeling that I screwed up my exams, thinking it was comparitively easy when I had actually just given bogus answers... I guess I'll find out soon, aye? Holidays at the end of next week too ^^ The beginning of spring could not have been any sweeter =)
I guess I'm being cheerful since exams are over and all... But now I don't know what to do... I guess it's time for me to actively look for a job then... Maybe I should go and work in a cafe, even though pay's crap, but still, hey, it's a job, right? =P
Can't really think of much to say, unless you want me to go into the stupidity of me having to prove something in binomial theorem... -_-" Heh, and I got entered for an extra Scholarship subject, so I had to drop it before they charged me for taking more than 3 scholarship subjects >.< And I didn't even know until like yesterday, and the last date of payment was like tomorrow -_-" Great timing eh?
I guess I'll go now... time to finally relax, listen to music and all... Can't get the song by Orson - Bright Idea - out of my head... I guess it's going to be stuck for some time...
Here's my bright idea... I'll just disappear!
Heh, it's kinda a sad song when you listen to the lyrics... Anywayz, ciaoz~
I guess I'm being cheerful since exams are over and all... But now I don't know what to do... I guess it's time for me to actively look for a job then... Maybe I should go and work in a cafe, even though pay's crap, but still, hey, it's a job, right? =P
Can't really think of much to say, unless you want me to go into the stupidity of me having to prove something in binomial theorem... -_-" Heh, and I got entered for an extra Scholarship subject, so I had to drop it before they charged me for taking more than 3 scholarship subjects >.< And I didn't even know until like yesterday, and the last date of payment was like tomorrow -_-" Great timing eh?
I guess I'll go now... time to finally relax, listen to music and all... Can't get the song by Orson - Bright Idea - out of my head... I guess it's going to be stuck for some time...
Here's my bright idea... I'll just disappear!
Heh, it's kinda a sad song when you listen to the lyrics... Anywayz, ciaoz~
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Blogger beta...
Heh, I've switched to Blogger Beta, being the one who cannot resist all things new... I thought I'd be part of the crowd and try something new ^^ Aren't I unoriginal? =P
Two exams down today, and two more to go over the next two days!!! YAY!!! And then 1 week more of school followed by holidays!!! Heh, except that I'm feeling like I should get myself a job, except that I'm being fussy about jobs =\
Hmm, should study for Stats and Bio... Ciaoz~
Two exams down today, and two more to go over the next two days!!! YAY!!! And then 1 week more of school followed by holidays!!! Heh, except that I'm feeling like I should get myself a job, except that I'm being fussy about jobs =\
Hmm, should study for Stats and Bio... Ciaoz~
Saturday, September 09, 2006
The DHDFD'S
Yeah... Went to a gig last night... I don't know all the bands that performed... Two of them came from my school, the 80's Jacket Club and the Pink Fluffy Clouds... Hmm, and the DHDFD's... 6/7 bands/people performing in total... and it was not too bad ^^ Only thing I could say is I wish there were more people... Like perhaps 2-3 times the amount...
Quite a few eye candy to feed on, heh... But apart from that, it was good fun... ^^ the music was rather good, and it only cost me $10, so it was cheap... Went with jase and bee, and well... chris was performing, so he was there, in a sense... We did dance, nearly everyone, down in the centre... Gosh, it was... umm... rowdy? I got pushed all over along with everyone, but it was good... only two bad things mainly:
1) I broke my jacket button!!! ='(
2) My shoulders and legs are reallll sore >.<
And now I'm off to study for... Chem, Phys, Calc Scholarship, Bio, Stats... in that order... English was horrrrrrrribleeeeeeeeee.... I think I failed two out of three of my essays... Man, I hate Arthur Miller... and I hate BladeRunner... ARGH!!! >.< Peaceout~
Saturday, September 02, 2006
Friday
Well, made this post a lil' late, but yeah... Was kinda busy last night, so...
Saw Silent Hill with chris yesterday... Well, it wasn't going to be just us, but things came up, so >.< Hehe, it was actually not too bad, just four main issues imo:
a) there is no story, and so the movie goes to crap after a while
b) similarly, there are characters, but you know almost next to nothing about some of them
c) extremely gruesomely disgustingly revoltingly bloody, especially the mortality scenes at the end
d) dumb ending... what do you mean she's STILL in the alternate reality?!
but yeah, it was otherwise perfectly fine, it managed to convey the mood pretty well, and pyramid head looked perfect for a scary movie parody ^^
Earlier on Friday, jase found (actually stole from the idiotic Chem teacher ^^ =P) mini Post-Its... and hilarity ensued... =D Perhaps 'cos it was a Friday and all that... We stuck Post-Its that read "I sat on a POST-IT" on people's seats in assembly so when they sat down it'll be on their asses... LOLZ... Call me silly, but that was rather amusing for a while...
Can't believe exams are starting next thurs... And I haven't studied!!! Arghh!!!! I somehow have a bad feeling about my exam results for this term, which can't be good... considering they're my forecast results to get into engineering next year... >.< -_-" *sigh* I hate stats, and english too... DAMN YOU OTHELLO!!! Why couldn't we do manga as literature? It's so much easier... just go copy and paste for the picture... and voila! Done!!! =P
Heh, wasting precious time not studying, so better at least start revising Stats, or Physics, or Bio, or English, or even Scholarship..... stress.......
Ciaoz~
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Windows Live Writer
Yeah, at the moment I am not on the blogger webpage, I'm just typing my good ol' post by the programme named above... It's really cool, it actually saves you time, and it's rather simple to use too =)
You know, someone told me today that I contradict myself... Well, I suppose I do, but then if I didn't it'll be too easy to read into what I think wouldn't it? =P And 'sides, it's not hard to tell what I'm being honest about, it kinda follows a pattern, if anyone's smart enough to spot it =P
Can't think of anything more to say, it's just a random post anyway... Cool... This porgramme's rather good...
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Small talk...
Have you read kennysia's small talk for I'm-not-sure-when? it goes...
Hahaha, that was good...
Did the how un-Malaysian quiz by kennysia as well... it's link? http://www.kennysia.com/archives/2006/08/how_unmalaysian.php
It was quite funny I must say... except that I'm 70% un-Malaysian... and that comes as a suprise... I especially didn't like him saying I was as un-Malaysian as Guy Sebastian... ugh... no thanks...
I even did the one by The Star Online, since it was kindly hyperlinked by Kenny, and I was given something like 25% Malaysian or something, another really low number... *sigh* Guess I'm not meant to be that Malaysian after all...
Short Talk:
I love it how The Star have so much puns in their headlines. In response to the Thai sex worker boom in Kelantan, one headline went: "Hard to go after prostitutes, say authorities"Hahaha, that was good...
Did the how un-Malaysian quiz by kennysia as well... it's link? http://www.kennysia.com/archives/2006/08/how_unmalaysian.php
It was quite funny I must say... except that I'm 70% un-Malaysian... and that comes as a suprise... I especially didn't like him saying I was as un-Malaysian as Guy Sebastian... ugh... no thanks...
I even did the one by The Star Online, since it was kindly hyperlinked by Kenny, and I was given something like 25% Malaysian or something, another really low number... *sigh* Guess I'm not meant to be that Malaysian after all...
Poetry.com?
Apparently, there is a website on poems that helps you rhyme words to create your poem... Personally I think that is really dumb... If you wanted to write a poem, you shouldn't need to find words that rhyme, just use your intuition... Plus, who ever said that every poem had to rhyme? Unless it was a sonnet of course... Heh, and somehow kiwis seem to think of poem-writing as emo... I find that personally amusing... in that case I must be emo... somewhat...
I wrote a poem as an accompaniment to my short story, you know, like how some books have little poems in between... I kinda filched the idea from Kubo Tite's (mangaka of Bleach) red and white poem... although his was more of the similar traits between red and white; ie, blood and bone, solitude and silence... etc etc etc... mine was more tailored to my story, to do with contrasting white and black, or light and dark... I planned to have a counterpart to the story, like a part 2, with a poem starting with black, but that was lame... so I scrapped it... I also rewrote my story, yay! Fixed coveration irregularities staring me in the eye, and added more mythologically vague references that seem to intrigue everyone, myself included... I guess no one actually noticed them, although they were there, like the seven towers, the gates of pearl, so on and so forth... Also made it less obscure, as it could have meant a whole host of things before... Someone remarked to me that it could have been about the reincarnation of someone... Wow, completely unexpected... >.<
Anyway, this is the poem I wrote... it's a little on the emo side because of black and white imagery... Should I have used pearl instead of ivory at the start? Hmm.... Here goes...
I wrote a poem as an accompaniment to my short story, you know, like how some books have little poems in between... I kinda filched the idea from Kubo Tite's (mangaka of Bleach) red and white poem... although his was more of the similar traits between red and white; ie, blood and bone, solitude and silence... etc etc etc... mine was more tailored to my story, to do with contrasting white and black, or light and dark... I planned to have a counterpart to the story, like a part 2, with a poem starting with black, but that was lame... so I scrapped it... I also rewrote my story, yay! Fixed coveration irregularities staring me in the eye, and added more mythologically vague references that seem to intrigue everyone, myself included... I guess no one actually noticed them, although they were there, like the seven towers, the gates of pearl, so on and so forth... Also made it less obscure, as it could have meant a whole host of things before... Someone remarked to me that it could have been about the reincarnation of someone... Wow, completely unexpected... >.<
Anyway, this is the poem I wrote... it's a little on the emo side because of black and white imagery... Should I have used pearl instead of ivory at the start? Hmm.... Here goes...
White like ivory
Black like jet
White like life
Black like death
White like solace
Black like succour
White like reverie
Black like slumber
White like the purity of the blameless
Black like the sins of the past
White like slow, unforgiving ash
Black like fast, unyielding mire
Even so that within the harsh light
Was ever the absolute darkness
Monday, August 28, 2006
Life's a whirlwind...
And I'm lucky enough to be caught splat in the middle of it... School's got drama, I tell you, if you pay attention... It's interesting to watch people do reenactments of the OC for you, with different people, and different twists to each resolution... I think I'm seriously starting to lose it...
School exams starting next Thurs, and somehow I don't think I'm going to do too well for this one... It's just a sense of foreboding you get, like the calm before a storm... I feel so unmotivated to do it, even though I have just about every single one there is, such as the fact that its my forecast results for uni... But still, it sometimes feels so pointless... We go about our daily lives, trying to redefine our identities with acts, placing on multiple layers of fascades, all to advance ourselves through life... And what does it bring us? Nothing more than the fruits of our labour: more labour... Life is ironic in a twisted way... But we still find enjoyment in its pointlessness... Perhaps I really do think too much... Is it really a gift to be so? I think not.
On a lighter note, I went to Auckland Uni's open day on Sat, gosh it was more fun than I thought... I saw this really pretty chick at the Fine Arts lecture (yes, she was really fine); but I didn't get to say anything more to her, because I left early for another mini-lecture... Sigh... on hindsight, I should have talked to her at least... Oh well... tabula rasa... And then I was talking to Sam bout it, some 7th former ^^, and we were walking along the Engineering block. Walking in front of us was some random chick from uni who was kinda like a tour guide/walking information counter (being very loose with terms). And it went like this:
Sam: So, did you see that girl in the grey jacket again?
Me: Nah, didn't see her since... Too bad, you know, that girl was so damn hot...
(Random chick turns around)
Chick: Wha?
Me: No, no, not you! (with palms outwards in rejection gesture)
Ooooh burn! Hehehe, didn't realise the implication and weight it carried until it left my mouth... After which I laughed it off with her, then proceeded to crack up when she was out of sight... LOLZ, maybe my humour's just shallow, but it was entertaining... One of the highlights of that day... I should have forgone the Engineering lectures... no chicks to look at/befriend whatsoever... Should have gone to Law/Arts/Fine Arts/Architecture/Commerce, where all the chicks somehow seemed to be naturally attracted to... It's like a geographical and academical double-whammy styled chick magnet... And that was more or less Saturday... Forgot to take pictures of the girl too =\ and of everything else... so oh well... too bad aye?
Ciaoz~ Gotta do my english essay for Othello... I really hate it now... Such an annoying play...
School exams starting next Thurs, and somehow I don't think I'm going to do too well for this one... It's just a sense of foreboding you get, like the calm before a storm... I feel so unmotivated to do it, even though I have just about every single one there is, such as the fact that its my forecast results for uni... But still, it sometimes feels so pointless... We go about our daily lives, trying to redefine our identities with acts, placing on multiple layers of fascades, all to advance ourselves through life... And what does it bring us? Nothing more than the fruits of our labour: more labour... Life is ironic in a twisted way... But we still find enjoyment in its pointlessness... Perhaps I really do think too much... Is it really a gift to be so? I think not.
On a lighter note, I went to Auckland Uni's open day on Sat, gosh it was more fun than I thought... I saw this really pretty chick at the Fine Arts lecture (yes, she was really fine); but I didn't get to say anything more to her, because I left early for another mini-lecture... Sigh... on hindsight, I should have talked to her at least... Oh well... tabula rasa... And then I was talking to Sam bout it, some 7th former ^^, and we were walking along the Engineering block. Walking in front of us was some random chick from uni who was kinda like a tour guide/walking information counter (being very loose with terms). And it went like this:
Sam: So, did you see that girl in the grey jacket again?
Me: Nah, didn't see her since... Too bad, you know, that girl was so damn hot...
(Random chick turns around)
Chick: Wha?
Me: No, no, not you! (with palms outwards in rejection gesture)
Ooooh burn! Hehehe, didn't realise the implication and weight it carried until it left my mouth... After which I laughed it off with her, then proceeded to crack up when she was out of sight... LOLZ, maybe my humour's just shallow, but it was entertaining... One of the highlights of that day... I should have forgone the Engineering lectures... no chicks to look at/befriend whatsoever... Should have gone to Law/Arts/Fine Arts/Architecture/Commerce, where all the chicks somehow seemed to be naturally attracted to... It's like a geographical and academical double-whammy styled chick magnet... And that was more or less Saturday... Forgot to take pictures of the girl too =\ and of everything else... so oh well... too bad aye?
Ciaoz~ Gotta do my english essay for Othello... I really hate it now... Such an annoying play...
Friday, August 04, 2006
TGI Friday!!!
Yes, I really mean it... Such a BORING week at school, if it continued, I'd really go crazy... Why? Mainly because of this idiotic Bio reliever-teacher we had (teacher was away for two days), who kept bitching about me not doing my work and not bringing my books... I mean, jeeeeeeeeeeez, I'm not bringing my books to Bio for a reason, and my Bio teacher knows better than to lecture me about it... All I'd have to do is wave my results in his face and he'll shut up, if he actually does start... Hmm, I sound so up myself, but yeah, that's what you get when you get placed into a stupid Lvl 2 bio class, when you're very well CAPABLE of Lvl 3 or perhaps even Stage 1 (uni)... Gah!
But that aside, I was extremely happy and pleased to learn that I have scored myself two Excellences for my English internals ^^, one for my 15-minute impromptu lecture, and the other for my done-in-two-hours report, oh yeah... feel so good for myself \^o^/ Plus, they were apparently marked very strictly, an added bonus to my already much-inflated ego... This can't be good for me, but it feels good ^^ Hurrah! Beat at least 95% of the Yr 13 classes... Shame!
There's this song that's been out for ages, and for some odd reason I can't seem to get the words out of my mind... So yeah, have you heard Breathe (2 AM) by Anna Nalick? I thought it was quite meaningful, around the time I was listening to You Only Live Once by The Strokes... but yes, the lyrics for Breathe (2 AM) follows... Perhaps that'll get it out of my mind...
But that aside, I was extremely happy and pleased to learn that I have scored myself two Excellences for my English internals ^^, one for my 15-minute impromptu lecture, and the other for my done-in-two-hours report, oh yeah... feel so good for myself \^o^/ Plus, they were apparently marked very strictly, an added bonus to my already much-inflated ego... This can't be good for me, but it feels good ^^ Hurrah! Beat at least 95% of the Yr 13 classes... Shame!
There's this song that's been out for ages, and for some odd reason I can't seem to get the words out of my mind... So yeah, have you heard Breathe (2 AM) by Anna Nalick? I thought it was quite meaningful, around the time I was listening to You Only Live Once by The Strokes... but yes, the lyrics for Breathe (2 AM) follows... Perhaps that'll get it out of my mind...
Anna Nalick - Breathe (2AM)
2 AM and she calls me cause i'm still awake
"can you help me unravel my latest mistake
i don't love him, winter just wasn't my season"
yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
like they have any right at all to criticise
hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason.
cause you can't jump the track
we're like cars on a cable
and life's like an hourglass glued to the table
no one can find the rewind button, girl
so cradle your head in your hands
and breathe, just breathe, oh breathe, just breathe
May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss
"just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist
ain't been sober since maybe October of last year
here in town you can tell he's been down for awhile
but my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
wanna hold him maybe i'll just sing about it
cause you can't jump the track
we're like cars on a cable
and life's like an hourglass glued to the table
no one can find the rewind button, boys
so cradle your head in your hands
and breathe, just breathe, oh breathe, just breathe
there's a light at each end of this tunnel
you shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
and these mistakes you've made
you'll just make them again if you'll only try turnin' around
2 AM and i'm still awake writing this song
If i get it all down on paper it's no longer inside of me
Threatening the life it belongs to.
And i feel like i'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud
And i know that you'll use them however you want to.
But you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand, yeah breathe
Just breathe, oh oh breathe, just breathe, oh breathe
just breathe, oh breathe, just breathe
2 AM and she calls me cause i'm still awake
"can you help me unravel my latest mistake
i don't love him, winter just wasn't my season"
yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
like they have any right at all to criticise
hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason.
cause you can't jump the track
we're like cars on a cable
and life's like an hourglass glued to the table
no one can find the rewind button, girl
so cradle your head in your hands
and breathe, just breathe, oh breathe, just breathe
May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss
"just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist
ain't been sober since maybe October of last year
here in town you can tell he's been down for awhile
but my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
wanna hold him maybe i'll just sing about it
cause you can't jump the track
we're like cars on a cable
and life's like an hourglass glued to the table
no one can find the rewind button, boys
so cradle your head in your hands
and breathe, just breathe, oh breathe, just breathe
there's a light at each end of this tunnel
you shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
and these mistakes you've made
you'll just make them again if you'll only try turnin' around
2 AM and i'm still awake writing this song
If i get it all down on paper it's no longer inside of me
Threatening the life it belongs to.
And i feel like i'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud
And i know that you'll use them however you want to.
But you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand, yeah breathe
Just breathe, oh oh breathe, just breathe, oh breathe
just breathe, oh breathe, just breathe
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Fictional Essay...
Right, I'd be happy if someone could give me their opinion on this... I wrote it about 3-4 months ago, this is its original version, which I actually wrote later, since the first was rather abrupt and confusing, according to some people who read it before... If you want the first version, which is shorter, but I can't remember how much shorter, probably just 2-3 paragraphs less, leave a comment or something with your email address if I don't have it... Enjoy~
The Angel That Slumbered
Darkness. Shrouded in peaceful quiet, enclosed in the shadows, the darkness that was absolute within itself, he slumbered within the eternity that was time; the silence entombing him in endless rest. Even as he slept, the darkness stirred. A presence, a manifestation, the embodiment of a will, was suddenly with him, where before only darkness and darkness alone kept his company. It approached him, but moved no closer to him in the material world, for it was only the will that approached his own.
“Rise, awaken, and slumber no more, Izariel. You do not belong here,” it said.
He stirred from his reverie. The darkness was ever comforting in its familiarity, beckoning him to return to tranquil sleep. Awareness flooded his being, the consciousness that was thought, the clarity that was memory, threatening to engulf his mind. He shied away from the clarity, shutting it out of his mind.
“Who are you? Why do you interrupt me in my slumber? I am not Izariel, seek him elsewhere, and leave me to my rest.”
“Do you not remember, Izariel? Perhaps your long self-imposed exile has caused you to forget yourself. Why don’t you let me help you?”
A small orb of light materialized into being, seemingly coalescing from the darkness itself; hovering close to his face. He turned his face from its dazzling brightness, unable to look into its painful glare. The slightest sliver of a remembrance slipped into his mind, of glimmering towers of lapis lazuli, and a sea of purest gold.
“What is this?”
“It is your destiny. Be not afraid, Izariel, it will aid in your recovery, if you are willing.”
“I am not Izariel.”
“Very well then, he who is not Izariel. If you are not he, who are you, and where do you come from?”
He struggled to remember, but found nothing in his mind to give indication to his identity. Pain lanced through his temples, and he grimaced.
“I do not know, but I am certain I am not he you speak of.”
“You don’t sound so certain yourself. But enough of this, will you accept your fate? You have slumbered long, and the time draws near. Come; look into the light once more.”
“It hurts, I don’t want to remember. Please, just leave me alone, I don’t want to remember, it hurts too much,’ he whimpered, pleading, almost sobbing.
“You must persevere. Face your past, for it is a part of you, and you a part of it. Seek not to escape it, for it will consume you otherwise. Courage, have heart, for you shall not fail in this. Fasten your resolve, and you will make it through the pain of memory.”
“But I am afraid, afraid of them…”
“Do not be afraid, for you are only at the beginning. Walk the path, and the journey shall be easier with time. Embrace your destiny, for the time is at hand. This is all I can do for you; the rest is for you to decide.”
With those words, the presence faded, and the darkness was his sole companion once more. But the orb remained, in its blinding brilliance, like the essence of stars purified; the darkness within as enthralling as the light itself.
Once more, he turned back, regarding it thoughtfully. Then slowly, cautiously, he stretched out his hand towards it. The shadows began melting away, fading into light itself, until all around him was the same enthralling, blinding brilliance as the orb before. The darkness within that was the orb’s core yet remained, and his hand continued towards it inexorably, as if drawn by the strings of a puppeteer.
Memories, memories of himself, memories of her, with flowing hair and eyes of brilliant blue, filled his mind. He saw her, and in that moment, all that had happened before. He saw seven towers of lapis lazuli overlooking a shining city across the sea of gold. He stood before twelve gates of pearl; he stood before ten spheres inscribed upon a wall in an arrangement he did not know. But through it all, he saw her, talking, running, laughing, crying; he felt both joy and sorrow as he watched her, in a tangle of bittersweet emotions. He saw her lying in a field of white and black flowers, him walking through the field of black and white, approaching her still form. He saw himself pick twelve flowers, six black flowers with white in its centre, and six white flowers with black through its centre. He saw himself laying the flowers upon her breast; he saw the tears that fell from his own face, onto her cheek, still and lifeless.
EDIT: I've updated this story, fixing some bits, I didn't add the poem, however, since it was kinda an aesthetic touch... Perhaps I'll add it when I perfect the poem...
Gah, screw it
Did I ever mention that I did not expect my life to suddenly turn to hell because I decided to try for Scholarship? ARGH!!! I still have 3 more 3-hour long past year papers to complete by Tuesday, and I'm so lacking motivation... which is rather ironic, considering that I and my corresponding year (Yr 12) just went for some half day motivational seminar thingy... which I thought was crap personally. It didn't help me any more than just advise me to do stuff I already know... Yeesh...
At least everything else is falling nicely into place, with the exception of finding a good part-time job and making sure I understand every damn bloody aspect of Physics. It's rather an annoyance I find, since I can't really remember everything I bloody well should... Sigh... And English too -_-" Ahh well, I'm taking the day off... Going to church later tonight... Ciaoz~
At least everything else is falling nicely into place, with the exception of finding a good part-time job and making sure I understand every damn bloody aspect of Physics. It's rather an annoyance I find, since I can't really remember everything I bloody well should... Sigh... And English too -_-" Ahh well, I'm taking the day off... Going to church later tonight... Ciaoz~
Monday, July 24, 2006
Careers!!! LOLZ
Heh, today at form period we had this careers thing, NZ society must be very concerned about the future career paths that their young children will take (personally, I think it's all a sham the military uses to get them to join the army... Join the ARMY!!!) Hehe, I will explain that shortly, but onto the career thingy... It appeared that we had to answer a whole lot of questions, expressing our interest in working the said material, or said subject, and so on, you get the picture, right?
After what I believed to be 70-ish questions (where my responses ranged from not interested to fairly interested, like 5 to 3 on a scale of 1 to 5), I got the answers... Guess what they recommended me to be... A Gynaecologist!!! O.M.G...... I mean, seriously, and this recommendation went under Skills... LOL!!! It was such a crackup, that I seriously was LOL-ling when I saw it... And the next recommendation by skill? Surgeon!!! With my shaky as hands, you want me to be a surgeon? Hah! Oh, ermm, I'll just make an incision here, and whoops, looks like I spilled open your gallbladder... Right...
Like I wanted to be a gynaecologist at any rate, it would be really traumatising, you know... -_-" Heh, but it was so funny... And other people I saw had like army stuff, or related to army stuff over it (see! I was right about the military recuitment conspiracies =P) And the thing was the questionairre had like the most stupid question in it, like "How inerested are you in... guarding other people's belongings?" You mean, how interested are you in beng a security guard? Yeah, like totally interested!!! *rolls eyes* Or how bout this "How interesting do you find... Maori?" Hmm, yes I'm sooooooo totally interested in that....... Heh, being a little rascist, but I can have my freedom of speech in my little blog... After all, I have been nice to them all along and got shit for it, I deserve to be petty...
But putting past grievances aside, today was such a hilarity, and the thing is... We are going to continue over the next two form periods!!! WOW!!! I sooo need to learn how to be a gynaecologist! Or perhaps I should redo my questions and be a security guard!! Or better still, join the army!!! YEAH!!! THE ARMY!!! Nothing else really that significant to highlight, but I'm missing my holidays =( Alright, time to get some work done, or attempt... Ciaoz~
After what I believed to be 70-ish questions (where my responses ranged from not interested to fairly interested, like 5 to 3 on a scale of 1 to 5), I got the answers... Guess what they recommended me to be... A Gynaecologist!!! O.M.G...... I mean, seriously, and this recommendation went under Skills... LOL!!! It was such a crackup, that I seriously was LOL-ling when I saw it... And the next recommendation by skill? Surgeon!!! With my shaky as hands, you want me to be a surgeon? Hah! Oh, ermm, I'll just make an incision here, and whoops, looks like I spilled open your gallbladder... Right...
Like I wanted to be a gynaecologist at any rate, it would be really traumatising, you know... -_-" Heh, but it was so funny... And other people I saw had like army stuff, or related to army stuff over it (see! I was right about the military recuitment conspiracies =P) And the thing was the questionairre had like the most stupid question in it, like "How inerested are you in... guarding other people's belongings?" You mean, how interested are you in beng a security guard? Yeah, like totally interested!!! *rolls eyes* Or how bout this "How interesting do you find... Maori?" Hmm, yes I'm sooooooo totally interested in that....... Heh, being a little rascist, but I can have my freedom of speech in my little blog... After all, I have been nice to them all along and got shit for it, I deserve to be petty...
But putting past grievances aside, today was such a hilarity, and the thing is... We are going to continue over the next two form periods!!! WOW!!! I sooo need to learn how to be a gynaecologist! Or perhaps I should redo my questions and be a security guard!! Or better still, join the army!!! YEAH!!! THE ARMY!!! Nothing else really that significant to highlight, but I'm missing my holidays =( Alright, time to get some work done, or attempt... Ciaoz~
Thursday, July 20, 2006
it's been 10 days...
since my birthday, that is... yeah, believe me, time flies so fast... school's getting to the point where it is just plain depressing, teachers heaping piles and piles of "I know you will do well" and stuff like that on you, otherwise homework which amounts to the same effect... and it's not that it is any different from last term, but then school's always been depressing anyway... the added pressure of homework seems to be making me crack...
with everything happening at whirlwind pace, it's honestly suprising that i can still have a good sense of what's happening around me... i'm feeling tired, or is that just my problems weighing on me? whatever... sometimes i just feel like dropping everything, with all the fakeness and pretense, gah...
maybe it's just temporary... who's to say... i'll yet see the end of this...
then life stretches out before me, and after a while... there just doesn't seem to be much relevance to it... maybe i'm just lost... maybe this, maybe that, bla bla bla...
saw an annoying quote today, i have no idea why, but i found it annoying... "Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional"... pfft, pain is only inevitable if you think it is what it seems to be, isn't it? after all, if everything is a perspective, nothing is definite, nothing more than the idea that no certainty can be found... but then that is a paradox...
if life was so dependent on luck, why are we so afraid to admit it? fear, fear of not being in control... after all, we all want to control things, don't we? I hate not being in control of my little sphere of acquaintances and friends... and yet nothing can be done, how can we ever have full control? we just keep wanting more and more...
i probably shouldn't be ranting so much over trivial matters, but it helps me think, so there. someday perhaps i'll look back at this and think: "what a fool i was, how young, rash, and obnoxious"... but then that'll be a while from now...
I think I'll go to sleep, my headache keeps bothering me, too much thinking these past few days... perhaps it is just better to forget it all... Nite~
with everything happening at whirlwind pace, it's honestly suprising that i can still have a good sense of what's happening around me... i'm feeling tired, or is that just my problems weighing on me? whatever... sometimes i just feel like dropping everything, with all the fakeness and pretense, gah...
maybe it's just temporary... who's to say... i'll yet see the end of this...
then life stretches out before me, and after a while... there just doesn't seem to be much relevance to it... maybe i'm just lost... maybe this, maybe that, bla bla bla...
saw an annoying quote today, i have no idea why, but i found it annoying... "Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional"... pfft, pain is only inevitable if you think it is what it seems to be, isn't it? after all, if everything is a perspective, nothing is definite, nothing more than the idea that no certainty can be found... but then that is a paradox...
if life was so dependent on luck, why are we so afraid to admit it? fear, fear of not being in control... after all, we all want to control things, don't we? I hate not being in control of my little sphere of acquaintances and friends... and yet nothing can be done, how can we ever have full control? we just keep wanting more and more...
i probably shouldn't be ranting so much over trivial matters, but it helps me think, so there. someday perhaps i'll look back at this and think: "what a fool i was, how young, rash, and obnoxious"... but then that'll be a while from now...
I think I'll go to sleep, my headache keeps bothering me, too much thinking these past few days... perhaps it is just better to forget it all... Nite~
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