10 Days Left...

Hmm, Will tells me that the colours I use are psychedelic... meh, whatever... too bad if he can't read =P Lolz, back to topic, I'm leaving NZ, (cheer people cheer, and hope I die in the next tsunami eh?) of course I'll be returning (this is where you cross your fingers) on Feb 5th or something like that. I leave on.... Dec 11, Sunday... and I'M GOING TO MISS THE SPM FAREWELL DINNER... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Heh....

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!

Ermm, hmm probably not exactly over... since I still have that idiotic scholarship Calculus exam... but still... it's like 9 days or so of free time!!! And I havn't started packing! Argh! I still havn't bought presents for anyone either! Crap! Shit! Fuck! (my first expletive!!!) heh...

Hmm... ok... enough with the hyper crap, I better go before I do myself more damage...

Ciaoz~

Meh.

I'm currently sitting in a cyber... Lolz... and I don't really know why... Hehe... Physics left only... oh and Scholarship too... which I don't care for since I won't pass anyway =)

I should organize something, but I can't be bothered.... if someone organized something it would be interesting...

I did not do much these few days, go Starbucks, go online, go offline, read Death Note, and do last minute study when required... so yeah... I'm feeling slow and lazy. -_-"

Quite a few people at Starbucks are on strike. And, contrary to what people think, it's not my home (hahaha..) and I can't care less about them.

I find it extremely annoying when people keep bugging me about my blog, like seriously... if you think my blog is boring... it's because my life is boring... I don't have to make it interesting for you, it's MY LIFE, and MY blog. There. All better now =)

Time to go. I'm off~

ZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZ....

So. Bored. Did absolutely nothing for the past weekend, today included. Let's see, posted a birthday card to my dad (24th Nov... it's abit late, I know >.<)... and nothing else of value... Two more major exams.... Go me =/

Yeah, as usual I spent my afternoon at Starbucks... there's nowhere else to go anyway... and Will gave me 3 free drinks because he had nothing better to do... lol...

Sigh... there's really nothing to do... maybe I'll go to a cyber for the whole afternoon tomorrow... I'll see...

Nothing more to say... oh yeah... it's Jason's b'day (-_-")... i wouldn't have figured unless he didn't put it on his MSN... hehe...

I'm off~

On the First Day Of Exam...

Well, here we are, into and well past the first exam... ermm.. think I just contradicted myself... whatever... Well, just had Bio... which was, as usual, pure utter complete bullcrap. I finished it and left early. The hectic thing about the exams is... I have CALCULUS FOLLOWED BY ENGLISH.... ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! SCREW ENGLISH!!!!!! Anyway, I still havn't studied for calculus or english, so I probably should.

Well, Calculus is not much of a concern. I'm sorely missing bugging people, and I'm very much addicted to Starbucks. Hmm, yeah, anyway, I followed Thomas, Duncan, and Chris to Thomas's house, where we played a bit of Singstar... truth to say, Duncan seemed to have little control over his voice modulation, but oddly... he probably sounded better than the rest of us... The irony...

Then Elliot came over, and after Duncan and Chris left, they went to exhaust / walk Thomas's over-hyper little dog. Truth to say, it honestly was freakishly hyper, and I thought Lionel was way more hyper than that, but it seems I'm wrong... Then I followed them towards the gym, as it was on the way to my house, and obviously, I got kinda lost through all the twists and turns, so I thought I should follow them till I could find my way home.

There's not much to do, I already handed in my application form to do the MAX programme. So bored, probably should wait for my exams to resolve. Sigh... I wanna go to the graduation dinner in M'sia ='( ... oh well... wishes won't help much. I better practice some problems in Calculus, otherwise I'll screw up my parametric graphs in Conics. Ta~

I'm off. Ciaoz..

Depression sets in...

I'm just feeling so tired and depressed today. Study leave has officially started, but I still feel sad inside, and so very weary... I feel at times like just closing my eyes forever, to leave behind my wretched, miserable life... sigh...

Not much of interest happened today, well obviously, considering that we only had 1 period of school. Well, except from me spraying Jason's hair with Black Code (Giorgio Armani fragance)... and getting him to "smell good". Heh. Exams are starting next week, and I find that I am progressively less and less concerned. I just feel out of it, and so mindless and depressed...

After school, I went to Starbucks again, and the barrista let me try some filtered Yukon coffee... using a French press, it wasn't too bad. I'm not much of a coffee connoisieur... (I think that's how it is)... so I wouldn't be able to tell you much about it. I then watched "Kiss Kiss Bang Bang" with Mihailo. I personally wouldn't recommend this movie to anyone, although it has its moments, and has an interesting twist, well, it was a little weird.

In a way, I think I will miss bugging Jason... sigh... I wish I had something to do... How depressing... I'm off to brood.

Out.

Firstborn and Square-faces...

Heh, today was a rather amusing day... Anyway, let me start. As usual, I'm disturbing Jason, and this was during Maths. Well, needless to say, I used my G2 pen and drew a line on his arm, not very nice as it's inky. Well, I repeated it again, and he threatened me: "Don't do it again, or I'll eat your firstborn..." Hmm... talk about bizarre... Lol... And quite obviously, I repeated it several times, till I think he has to eat 7 of my firstborn, which is impossible if you think about it. And oh yes, I told my Maths teacher, it went:

ME: Miss! Jason said he wanted to eat my firstborn!
Jason: I did not!
Teacher: *lifts eyebrow*

Later...

ME: Miss! Jason said he wanted to eat two of my firstborn!
Teacher: Well, given his disorder which you told me about (yeah, I said he had OCD / Obsessive Compulsive Disorder), he won't be able to eat them (because he eats the same thing everyday, kinda)
Jason: *puzzled look*

Heh, it got worse too... with him having to eat Nithin's 5 firstborn.... lolz.... talk about a really strange situation....

Later during the day, last period actually, we had no assembly, and so we got a free period of PE. Well, I suddenly noticed that Jason had a square face, and being as blatant as I usually am, I said it out loud. "Oh my gawd, your face is SQUARE!" And he pushed me off the seat. And then... I said "Square-Face!" and he pushed me off again. And then.... "I don't see what you don't like about being called square faced..." and... you know... I got pushed off again...

Well, lots of other things happened then too, some very disgusting, and some very dodgy, which I will not go into... Anywayz, ciaoz, I'm off for now.

Life as it is...

There isn't really much to expect from life these few days... As usual, I go to school, and disturb people, usually Jason, just because he's too easy to disturb, and laze around all day. Then I skive off doing homework, and so on.

I'm so bored, and exams are coming up in about two weeks... I don't intend to start studying yet though. I know it's not good, but.... I don't feel like it. I seem to get more depressed lately too.

I don't really know why, but I just feel so tired, and so weary. I notice that I'm getting more and more childish, perhaps some influence from Jason? I wouldn't know... it might be the end of year influence I seem to have annually.

I'm writing in short paragraphs because I feel like it. Sometimes I wish I didn't live with my parents, particularly my mum, since I'm currently staying with her, then perhaps I would be less depressed...

Reflecting, I noticed that I had quite a fun year... I kinda feel a little guilty to Jason for being so mean... but I certainly never regretted teasing him, though I might make it up to him by getting him something for his birthday which I think is coming up soon. I'm so nice (not)

I went to Starbucks so frequently these past weeks. The baristas definitely know me on a first-name basis by now... it's so good to just sleep there, and not be in the depressing life I'm a part of. Sigh... I'm so tired... and depressed... I think I'll go and entertain myself tomorrow by disturbing someone... hmm.... I probably should organize a movie outing soon...

Till then. Peace out.

Finally...

Havn't been blogging in a while. This was due to my extremely busy holidays with my mum being at home >.< ; and my mum having to spoil my damn comp because she keeps using it, I think she overheated it again. sigh... so now I'm using my sis's crappy laptop to type my blog.

Exams start in about 2 or 3 weeks, and I don't feel like doing them. I return to Malaysia in about 7 weeks or so... School's extremely boring these few days. For some odd reason I seem to be lapsing into little bouts of depression more frequently. Sigh...

Heh, today Chris organized a kind of booze party and he invited Jason. An interesting to note is that Jason has: a) never gotten drunk in his life; b) has never even drunk a beer. So, I expect it will be interesting. It's just sad that it's going to be hard for him to get out, since his parents kinda curfewed him.

I keep getting stuck in writing my book, I don't know why... but the beginning is so hard, I already got everything else planned, just the start ... >,<

Oh well, my sister crashed the car into a pillar yesterday by reversing into it. I have no idea how that happened, it was kinda quick, and I still don't exactly know what happened. Lol, my mum got so pissed, and kinda fried my sister in her skin. I think I'll take some time off at starbucks today and destress -_-"""

On an interesting note, I found out yesterday I got 3rd place for my school in Calculus, and tied with someone I dn't know. Hah! Imagine the irony, a 5th-former beating the crap out of 6-th and 7-th formers in Calculus...

Well, well... I had better get into the shower. Adios.

Holidays

Yes, I have been having my holidays since Monday this week. But, I haven't been able to write at all cos my mum's in, and I can hardly use the comp when she's in. ><

Holidays are boring... Too lazy to finish my story or to study at all. So I'm just gonna waste time. Peace out.

My Autograph Book

As I very well have a tendency to show off, I bought an autograph book, and I'm showing it off (how very predictable)... I think some parts of it suit Chun Yik very much (hehehehe....) for those who don't know, Chun Yik was my classmate, and he prides himself on being hot and sexy, etc etc etc =) hehehehe....

10-Pin Bowling

Went bowling with my sister's friends yesterday, after going for dinner at Nando's. Their chicken wasn't too bad. I suck (kinda) at bowling. My score was errr 82/180... ><

Nothing much of interest occurs during the weekend. Oh, I got my haircut... and it's so damn short again >< ... it stands up after I sleep, like now >< >< .... and I've got a stupid English assignment to finish in one week which I haven't started... yay... go me.

Weekends are so boring, I kinda hate them now. And it keeps raining in Auckland, so sky's always grey, and the stupid wind keeps blowing. Fortunately I didn't get sick on Friday after getting drenched in the stupid rain with stupid wind some more.

Celebration!!!

Woohoo! Exams over!!! Lolz... I just finished phys... and I don't really care what I got. Hehe, today I went to Esquires Coffee on the recommendation of my Maths teacher (she was trying to prick my conscience by telling me Starbucks rips off the coffee bean growers). Anyway, the coffee wasn't too bad, I just wish I could strengthen it at times, but Esquires is quite large and roomy.It didn't stop me from picking up a coffee from Starbucks afterwards though =) hehe.

Yesterday, I got my Calculus results back. I personally think I did quite well, at least better than half of the Yr 13s, and i'm in Yr 11 (smirk smirk smirk)... I got 1 Excellence, 2 Merits, and 1 Achieved. =) (I'm such a boaster aren't I?)

Hehe, now to relax and write the rest of my book. Ciaoz.

3 down, 2 to go...

Yay!!! Bio, Calculus, and English done... Calculus was easier than I expected, considering that I forgot to study it, whereas English... that's the problem... my fingers hurt from all that writing, stupid essays. I totally made up every single bit, and I recopied my short stories essay with a little bit extra. Everything else was just crap.

Hmm... oh yeah, NOTE TO SELF: Organize movie thing for Friday.
And... Chem and Phys left.... ><>< oh well.....

I hate English I hate English I hate English.... yeah... today wasn't too bad if you discount the fact that there were exams... I disturbed Jason (again!) and he (unsuprisingly) gave a little kid reaction... (cringing and the like, lolz it's hilarious...hehehe) Hmm... I hope Jason doesn't read this... =P gahahahahahahah... I'm so evil.

Starbucks, Bio, Tim's, & Writing

Wow.... Exams today was sooooo boring. But before that... I went to the mall, had breakfast at McDonalds which had really lousy coffee, and it was boiling hot, not good for drinking. Then I had a cuppa at Starbucks and wrote the first page of Chapter 1. Round bout 10 I picked up a 4-shot choc cuppa with hazelnut (mmmm.... good), and walked to school. Then I met up with Mihailo and we went to Tim's. We met his cat and played Uno, as well as admiring his new snow-BMX ('twas a good one).

After that, I underwent two hours of bio exam and one hour of lazing around. I wrote a really cheap horror story in ten minutes. Speaking of which, I think writing stories has become my new passion. Suddenly, I have such a creative stream. Lol, I never imagined it possible, but I don't want to be a writer. Well, at least not a full-time. Maybe I'll write part-time and release my books. We'll see...

And... arghh!!!! Calculus and English on Monday!!!! Noooooooo!!! Practice and study first priority this weekend, so I might not update this weekend. We'll see.... K, i'm off.

Bored....

Study leave today.... and I'm bored to death. I've got nothing to do. I started writing a fantasy "novel" two days ago, and I finished the prologue. I want to continue writing, but I just feel so lazy. >.< yeah.... if any of you are so free to want to read the prologue, you can ask me to type it out and send it to you, if I can be bothered =P ...

Exams until next Friday... isn't that great? My exams actually finish on Wednesday, so I might organise something before I kill myself in boredom. I need to disturb someone -_-"

Exams =(

What I dread is coming, the exams draw near. Sigh... exams this Thursday, and I probably won't be blogging for a short while again =( . At least I get study leave, so I might just not study and go to the city =P ... hehehe.....

I think Jason is getting a little active suddenly... strange... he pushed me when I was reclining a short moment after I pushed him ... *pif* .... Hehe... whatever, he's still a great form of entertainment.... like a little child at play. Children can be so fun to watch, I wonder if they will ever grow up and lose their innocence...

Meaningless...

Exactly what the title says. Meaningless. I feel like that right now. In and out of school, going in and out of home; never here nor there. I feel like I have no true friends at times, I cannot enjoy anything. Probably my own enjoyment is only derived from the pleasure of the "Great Game". Yet, all I do for advancement in the Game does not bring me pleasure.

Friends? Sometimes I do not know what to say. I really never know who really are my friends or otherwise. Truth is, I highly doubt anyone even knows me for who I am. Lonely? Of course I am. Why else would I ramble on and on here? I hide behind the multitude of masks I have, each time wearing a different one. Of course, it's the only way to bring intrigue I sorely feel the lack of into the Game.

People think they know me so well. Sadly, this is far from the truth. None can understand me without first becoming me. It's pure fact. Exactly why I cannot understand others, and that I can understand some. Some are like me in parts, and others unlike.

The Great Game? It's nothing, save an imaginary playing board, where everyone becomes a piece on the board. Everything is done by moves, manipulation of pieces to achieve an aim: Everyone, icluding myself, is a player, and we are all means to an end. I admit I'm not too good a player of the Game, I cannot bear to manipulate some at times; guilt is something I cannot completely mask.

I am troubled, honestly I am. I just feel so weary and tired. At least I never let my mask slip in school. Probably everyone thinks I'm just tired. That, in itself, is good. I cannot afford to have holes in the fascade.

And once more, I rant on and on. Truly, I must say, I will never understand some people. Somehow seeming sincere, but yet I must be wary, I always am. My experiences have changed me so. So hence I watch.

Anyway....
*Draws deep breath*
School was completely and utterly boring and useless. Nothing to be done. Lazing around in field at lunch... Playing diplomacy during english, and apparently my country is quite strong. Like I care. Some people care too much.

Nosebleed!!!

You know... I think I'm getting addicted to blogging again... Today basically sucked... Had ultra boring physics with learning uncertainties (you know... they can be really fussy... why not just say my whole experiment is probably wrong and full of crap).

Beyond that, the day was comparitively better... and oh, Imade Jason's nose bleed today... heh... all I did was throw something lightly... and apparently his nose started bleeding soon after... (gosh... what a weak nose =P ) hmm....

I think I'm finding that I like the james blunt song... you're beautiful quite abit... It's quite sad, come to think of it... And it appears I do like sad songs at times... Lolz... I can't think of anything more to say.... Ciaoz

~~~Flowers~~~

Yeah, today at bio our class got to cut up flowers... That was not the interesting bit. The interesting bit was that after cutting it up, I got so bored. And... I threw the stalk at Ben, this clasmate of mine. This obviously hit him quite hard... (hehehehe) and it started a "flower" fight. So, I got hit by like 4 hard flower buds (really really hard) and leaves, flowers, and stalks... the works.

The suprising thing was that they WERE suprised to see me behaving so... err... unproper? They always think I'm so perfect and such a goody-two shoes. Hah! That showed them =P lolz. I can be evil too (actually, most of the time...) They probably never notice it. =)

Beyond that, there wasn't really anything interesting happening. School was sooooooooooo boring.... I finally did my dramatic presentation (which I thought sucked badly...) and somehow got a merit!! Yay!!!

Hmm...meh class photo.